Why did I start writing

I love reading why bloggers started their blog. It is like reading and understanding who they are. A behind the scenes kind of thing.

So I thought that I would write about why I started writing. Almost a year ago.

So when I started experiencing anxiety more frequently for no reason without any insurance to see a shrink, I thought to myself how can I get these thoughts out? How can I talk about it without making anyone uncomfortable? I could write it out in a journal. But then I get issues with my hand hurting from writing by hand too long. Then I stop writing in the journal after time. How can I help get the word out about mental illness? How can I do my part in breaking the stigma?

That is where ThisAnxiousMom came in. I wanted to write about my struggles. Things I like. Things I’ve done. How I handle things. How I could handle things differently and just my life in general as someone who constantly has anxiety and who’s mind NEVER shuts off. I have over 200 followers now which is amazing. I never in my wildest dreams would think that I would have anyone care about anything I say.

So Thank you. All of you. Who take the time out of your busy day to read my blog. To read my struggles. And thank you to those who comment. Those that let me know that I am not alone. Those who send encouragement. Those who just say hi. It means a lot. I have tried to be an open book. I have tried to let each and everyone of you into my thoughts my mind my mental illness. I have always encouraged any of you to share my stories on social media or anywhere. I have all type of share buttons. I have also tried to encourage you to share your own personal stories, struggles or just to say hi.

Well, this is my short reason for why I started writing.  If you’re a blogger, why did you start to write?

Good for mental health

 

I don’t know if you can tell that I decided to create this blog because I have a mental illness and there is such a stigma around mental health that it can make it hard to talk about it. That is why I decided to write about it. Write about me. My struggles. My issues. My anxiety. Because not only do I want to lend a hand in breaking the stigma like Mike Shinoda, Anna Shinoda and Talinda Bennington. But I feel better when I write about what is going on. It helps to get it out. I know you all could judge me. But what I have seen from the first time I started writing is that you guys do not judge. In fact, many of you are very understanding because what I am going through many of you have been through.

It is so amazing to know that other than my best friend, there are others like me. And I will continue to write as long as I can.

I find that writing about the things that make you depressed or anxious is a great exercise in the step to understanding what is your trigger. Notice that I didn’t say get better. or fix it. Because I will always have this battle. It is not something that you can just get over. Even though people like to assume that you can just get over it. You can’t. It is just impossible. There is a chemical imbalance in my brain that I don’t know can be fixed.

Writing allows you to describe what is wrong. What happened. And why it made you feel that way. Over time, writing will allow you to define what some of your triggers are. That way in the future, you may be able to either overcome the trigger or identify it so that you can make changes before it triggers you.

Either way, if you have a mental illness…. I suggest keeping a journal of when you have those bad days.