The best concert

 

Choosing a favorite concert is extremely hard. I have been fortunate enough to go to so many. It is one of the few things that I can do while being extremely anxious. Being in the big crowds is extremely shaking as well as the awful traffic that we have to go thru to get there. It is extremely awful for me. But the music is my therapy. My first concert was back when I was 14. My brother and his wife took me. It was an amazing concert and a wonderful introduction into the musical world. I saw 10 years, Mudvayne and Korn.

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While Korn was pretty awesome, mudvayne is the one I was looking forward to since I had spent months since finding out I was going studying and focusing on their music. I had never been to a concert before this one and it was pretty amazing for me because it showed me into this whole new world of live entertainment. If I hadn’t had gone to this show, I don’t know if I would have had the balls to branch out to more shows.

My next concert was also with my brother. It was TOOL. They were so phenomenal. It was such a great show that you didn’t even realize you were standing for 3 hours. It was great. However, I didn’t know as many songs by them as my brother did.

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He loved it so much that when they came back thru, he went right back.

My third concert came about when I was around 15 or 16. Again, with my brother and his wife. This was actually a concert that he had chosen for me to take a friend with me. Which was even more amazing. except for the fact that my friend spent most of the concert throwing up and my brother/sister were making out most of the concert. Either way, I still loved the show. We saw breaking seether, breaking benjamin and three days grace.

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Now this was three days grace before the change of the lead singer. This was right after RIOT came out on the radio. Let’s just say, I lost my voice and my calf muscles were on fire from the amount of jumping. It was amazing.

However, my next concert after that was supposed to be the first concert I was supposed to be attending with my husband and we had purchased 2 tickets weeks in advance. Unfortunately, he had to go to work out of state at the time of the concert. Which happened to be right after we got married, it was a rough time. However, I needed to find someone else to go with me. So I choose my other brother, my oldest brother to go with me and we really had a great time. It was the second time that I saw Breaking Benjamin and found a new band called Young Guns. They were quite amazing and actually got a photo with the lead singer.

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I went to this one thing called weenie roast in 2015. I was pregnant and sick pretty much the entire time but it was still amazing. We saw LIVE which as a 90’s kid hearing Lightning Crashes live was pretty amazing. But the thing that I will always remember is seeing Stone Temple Pilots with Chester Bennington live. It was the only time that I was able to see  Chester in person, which kind of made me very sad when I went back to that same venue earlier this week. tumblr_otep7llKxP1tknl59o1_500

Of course the concert I went to right after that was Green Day. They were flipping amazing and the one concert that I had absolutely wanted to go to for a very long time. Who doesn’t love Billie Joe Armstrong. 3648186636d5ae53e2b40d3e5657b51ce800ccc15f5c1d31f6132fec92c09fe1

Two months after Green Day was FOB and I went with my best friend. That’s Fall Out Boy for those who don’t know what it is. Which I don’t know many who don’t know who fall out boy is. That concert was amazing. It was the first concert I went to without a family member. I let loose. I danced like no one was watching. I screamed lyrics like no one was listening. I was free. And I get to go for my birthday this year which makes me so happy.

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So FOB was in November and I haven’t been to another since then until this week. When we got to be apart of the last Vans Warped Tour. Where I got to see Issues. which was a fantastic experience. I was got to see new music and learn of new bands so it was a win win. I have been listening to Issues since we decided that this was a concert we were going to. So since about January. I really enjoy their music.

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However, the one band that I could no wait to see was Simple Plan. I have been listening to them since I’m Just A Kid came out in 2002. I got their autograph and I got a picture with them I was so excited. I was overjoyed. I was jumping and screaming and dancing and in awe If you have never had the chance to see Simple Plan…. I strongly suggest that you do.

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But which is my favorite.  I honestly cannot choose. Each concert holds specific and strong memories for me. Each event marked a special moment in my heart. They each came at a pivotal moment in my life. I wouldn’t trade any of the events I have been to and I honestly cannot say I have a favorite.

How about you? Do you have a favorite concert?

Out of a bad mood

So with a mental illness like anxiety, your moods can kind of switch really fast and sometimes well most of the time you’re in a bad mood.

So how do you get out of the bad mood?

For me. I watch youtube videos. I sing. I dance around. Green Day is a great band to listen to when you just need to jump around. Which makes your bad mood kind of disappear.

But I mean I don’t just turn it on and instantly drop my mood. No it takes time. It takes a process. it takes a few videos. But with Green Day…. I usually get out of the mood pretty fast. sometimes.

Another thing is watching my favorite bands be just like everyone else. We see them as celebrities and for some reason society holds them to this higher standard so when I see Pete Wentz do something silly it makes me smile. Or Brendon Urie. Or even Patrick Stump.

My last bad mood was because of 2 seperate anxiety attacks within 5 hours of eachother that when I got home I just started surfing youtube and found a video of Patrick Stump performing Uma Thurman on the acoustic guitar. He did the Munster part and I was in awe. Like I need to pick up a guitar again just so I can learn that. He doesn’t need autotune and is so flipping talented. I mean, I feel like the MANIA album was a testament to the vocal capabilities that is Patrick Stump.

When I am in a bad mood, I force myself even if I don’t want to, to play with my kids. Because kids do the darndest things. They can be so flipping cute sometimes even if they drive you bonkers.

So how do you guys get out of a bad mood???

#Lyric Are We All We Are-Pink

Oh
Oh
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
Cut to now holy wow
When did everything become such a hell of a mess?
Maybe now, maybe now
Can somebody come and take this off my chest?
I know you think it’s not your problem
I know you think that God will solve them
But if your shit is not together it’ll never be
You and me
Plant the seed
Open up and let it be
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

Oh
We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

Oh
Just sing it loud until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Oh
Oh
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Seven seconds
Seven seconds
That is all the time you got to make your point
My attention, my attention’s like an infant tryin’ to crawl around this joint
I know I’m better than the masses
But we’re all followin’ our asses
And if our shit is not together
It’ll never be
You and me
Plant the seed
Open up and let it be
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

Oh
We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (rest of)
Oh
Just sing it loud until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Four, that’s how many years it took me to get through the lesson
That I had to do it all my own
Three, that’s how many Hail Mary’s they would pay for me
Thinkin’ I was gonna end up all alone
Two, for second chances that you’ve given me
Can it be lucky me, lucky me
Now let’s go
One, it’s what we are, it’s what we are

Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

Oh
We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)
Oh
Just sing it loud until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)
Oh
We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)
Oh
Cut to the future sing it loud and take the power back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Self empowerment anthem. Stand up for yourself message

I absolutely love this song. the beat is so amazing. Its upbeat and empowering. It’s a song I want to listen to when I need to feel better about myself. I already have a low self esteem and anxiety makes it that much worse. I love Pink. She’s just her. I mean she doesn’t ever conform to what society thinks she should be. She does what she wants. She sings what she wants. She is amazing and such a role model.

#Lyrics Shut Up-Simple Plan


There You Go
You’re always so right
It’s all a big show
It’s all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can’t get it right
It’s like I’m the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It’s all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you’re special
But i know and I know and I know
And we know
That you’re not

You’re always there to point out
My mistakes
And shove them in my face
It’s like I’m the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Don’t tell me who I should be
And don’t try to tell me what’s right for me
Don’t tell me what I should do
I don’t want to waste my time
I’ll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

so shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say
Is gonna bring me down

Bring me down (shut up, shut up, shut up)
Bring me down
Bring me down(shut up shut up shut up)
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up!

This song shows how people don’t want to be what others want them to be.

This song used to be my anthem for people who use to tell me who I needed to be. Or trying to be my parent just because all I had was my mom. This was my song. I know its not like the best song out there but its good. It might be repetative but its such a good song

#Lyrics Perfect-Simple Plan

Hey, Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I’m wasting my time
Doing things I want to do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for
You can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t care any more
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’s all right
‘Cause we lost it all
And nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
And nothing’s gonna make this right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard just to talk to you
But you don’t understand
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
The drummers parents weren’t supportive of his career choice so he and the lead singer wrote this song to prove that they could make it and to say sorry.
But to fans…. it took a much more deeper meaning. It was more. It was every teenage angst feeling.  I know it is how I felt a lot through my puberty years. My teenage years. My so called rebellion years (I wasn’t that rebellious.) I wanted to be perfect but I can never be perfect. I wanted to make my mom proud. I wanted to make my brothers proud but it just wasn’t in the cards for me. I mean… I am still trying but it doesn’t hold as much disappointment as it did then. I know now that all I can do is try my best every single day.

#Lyrics Walk Away-Good Charlotte

I made this bed
I choose to lie in it
Live with my regrets
Sleep with what I said
Could this be the end
I’m standing on the edge of everything I wanted now
I was afraid
I was afraid
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I fear
It’s easier to walk away from everything
Separate my soul with all the things we shared
I’m falling to pieces
Now say a prayer for me (Say a prayer for me)
When you go to bed (’cause)
I’m in need of your faith now
I was afraid
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I fear
It’s easier to walk away from everything
If we could just re-set and live in happiness
Instead of out regrets, We would salvage everything
We don’t have to walk away
Pray for me now, I’m in need of faith
Pray for me now, I’m in need
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I feared
It’s easier to walk away from everything
If we could just re-set and live in happiness
Instead of out regrets, We’d salvage everything
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I failed
It’s easier to walk away from everything
Walk away from everything
Walk away from everything
This song is about how everyone has their demons and how sometimes you feel it is better to walk away but its not always that simple and sometimes you just have to face them.
I remember when this album came out. I really do… I was in Middle School and my group of friends thought it was the best album of the year…We just had to have it. But not the life version. The Death version was the one to go to. That album… there was just so many good songs on there. Like S.O.S, Walk Away, We Believe…darn now i’m going to have to pull it out and listen to it

#Lyrics Emotionless-Good Charlotte

 

Hey dad
I’m writing to you
Not to tell you, that I still hate you
Just to ask you
How you feel
And how we fell apart
How this fell apart
Are you happy out there in this great wide world?
Do you think about your sons?
Do you miss your little girl?
When you lay your head down
How do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we’re all right?
But we’re all right
We’re all right
It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not okay,
But we’re alright
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
I spent so many years learning how to survive
Now, I’m writing just to let you know that I’m still alive
The days I spent so cold, so hungry
Were full of hate
I was so angry
Those scars run deep inside this tattooed body
There’s things I’ll take, to my grave
But I’m okay
I’m okay
It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not okay,
But we’re all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I’m writing just to let you know that I’m still alive
Yeah, I’m still alive
Sometimes
I forgive
Yeah and this time
I’ll admit
That I miss you, said I miss you
It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there all the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not okay,
But we’re all right
I remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
But those were just a long lost memory of mine
Now, I’m writing just to let you know that were still alive
And sometimes
I forgive
And this time
I’ll admit, that I miss you, miss you
Hey dad
Joel and Benji Madden wrote this as a letter to their dad after he cheated on their mom and walked out on them when they were 16…. It is a powerful song.
And heres where I get personal with you guys… no judgement right.
My dad was abusive. He beat my mom…he beat my brothers. He was an alcoholic…he was mostly an ass.
My mom….being the strong badass that she is….left him when I was a toddler. Honestly she was afraid of what type of abuse he would subject me to. Now as many of you know… He passed away before thanksgiving.
Growing up without my dad. I always had these questions. Like who was he. What type of person was he. Did he love me. did he miss me. Why wasn’t he around. You know typical kid questions… When I first heard this song.. I cried… but I couldn’t do it publicly because my brothers still resented him for the abuse. It was difficult. I understand that and he had some awful responses to why he did what he did. But he was my dad so being an emotional person… I wanted to know… him…answers…everything… but I didn’t have any of them.
And now… I will never have my answers… So this song is even more painful. But I love me some Good Charlotte.