The best concert

 

Choosing a favorite concert is extremely hard. I have been fortunate enough to go to so many. It is one of the few things that I can do while being extremely anxious. Being in the big crowds is extremely shaking as well as the awful traffic that we have to go thru to get there. It is extremely awful for me. But the music is my therapy. My first concert was back when I was 14. My brother and his wife took me. It was an amazing concert and a wonderful introduction into the musical world. I saw 10 years, Mudvayne and Korn.

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While Korn was pretty awesome, mudvayne is the one I was looking forward to since I had spent months since finding out I was going studying and focusing on their music. I had never been to a concert before this one and it was pretty amazing for me because it showed me into this whole new world of live entertainment. If I hadn’t had gone to this show, I don’t know if I would have had the balls to branch out to more shows.

My next concert was also with my brother. It was TOOL. They were so phenomenal. It was such a great show that you didn’t even realize you were standing for 3 hours. It was great. However, I didn’t know as many songs by them as my brother did.

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He loved it so much that when they came back thru, he went right back.

My third concert came about when I was around 15 or 16. Again, with my brother and his wife. This was actually a concert that he had chosen for me to take a friend with me. Which was even more amazing. except for the fact that my friend spent most of the concert throwing up and my brother/sister were making out most of the concert. Either way, I still loved the show. We saw breaking seether, breaking benjamin and three days grace.

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Now this was three days grace before the change of the lead singer. This was right after RIOT came out on the radio. Let’s just say, I lost my voice and my calf muscles were on fire from the amount of jumping. It was amazing.

However, my next concert after that was supposed to be the first concert I was supposed to be attending with my husband and we had purchased 2 tickets weeks in advance. Unfortunately, he had to go to work out of state at the time of the concert. Which happened to be right after we got married, it was a rough time. However, I needed to find someone else to go with me. So I choose my other brother, my oldest brother to go with me and we really had a great time. It was the second time that I saw Breaking Benjamin and found a new band called Young Guns. They were quite amazing and actually got a photo with the lead singer.

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I went to this one thing called weenie roast in 2015. I was pregnant and sick pretty much the entire time but it was still amazing. We saw LIVE which as a 90’s kid hearing Lightning Crashes live was pretty amazing. But the thing that I will always remember is seeing Stone Temple Pilots with Chester Bennington live. It was the only time that I was able to see  Chester in person, which kind of made me very sad when I went back to that same venue earlier this week. tumblr_otep7llKxP1tknl59o1_500

Of course the concert I went to right after that was Green Day. They were flipping amazing and the one concert that I had absolutely wanted to go to for a very long time. Who doesn’t love Billie Joe Armstrong. 3648186636d5ae53e2b40d3e5657b51ce800ccc15f5c1d31f6132fec92c09fe1

Two months after Green Day was FOB and I went with my best friend. That’s Fall Out Boy for those who don’t know what it is. Which I don’t know many who don’t know who fall out boy is. That concert was amazing. It was the first concert I went to without a family member. I let loose. I danced like no one was watching. I screamed lyrics like no one was listening. I was free. And I get to go for my birthday this year which makes me so happy.

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So FOB was in November and I haven’t been to another since then until this week. When we got to be apart of the last Vans Warped Tour. Where I got to see Issues. which was a fantastic experience. I was got to see new music and learn of new bands so it was a win win. I have been listening to Issues since we decided that this was a concert we were going to. So since about January. I really enjoy their music.

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However, the one band that I could no wait to see was Simple Plan. I have been listening to them since I’m Just A Kid came out in 2002. I got their autograph and I got a picture with them I was so excited. I was overjoyed. I was jumping and screaming and dancing and in awe If you have never had the chance to see Simple Plan…. I strongly suggest that you do.

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But which is my favorite.  I honestly cannot choose. Each concert holds specific and strong memories for me. Each event marked a special moment in my heart. They each came at a pivotal moment in my life. I wouldn’t trade any of the events I have been to and I honestly cannot say I have a favorite.

How about you? Do you have a favorite concert?

@FallOutBoy #FOBMania album review

The first song is Young and Menance I think this is a wonderful way to start off a cd. When the video first came out I remember thinking HOLY$#^* there is a new FOB song and its just so different.

I also loved the part where it said “Oops I did it again….. I only wrote this down to make you press rewind” Now I am a 90’s baby and I remember the Spears era when Oops I did it again was very popular. This little tid bit in the song made me giggle and it is just so FOB to have that.

I really enjoy this song. When we went to the concert, they handed out these little purple pieces of paper that when they played Young and Menance they asked us to put the paper over our phone’s flashlights to show our support. and honestly…. I don’t think FOB will ever lose my support they are a great band.


The next song is Champion and goodness I love this song. I mean I love it so much that I have cried. Serious big yucky tears. Yes FOB you are BACK with a madness and I know I am more than excited. I actually wish you’d come back already just so I can see you again. I adore Pete Wentz and if I ever met him…. I probably would have a heart attack.

What does this song mean to me? Why do I cry? I have anxiety disorder. I overthink a lot. I’m empathetic. I’m emotional. And I haven’t had the ideal childhood. I have felt like I was manipulated, emotionally abused, verbally abused, sexually abused. And this song. “If I can live thru this. I can do anything” Thank you FOB. I needed this song. More than you could ever know. I can do anything. and when I feel like I can’t… I listen to this song to remind myself.

The third song on the track is Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea, this song starts off with such a strong bass beat and is just so in your face loud. Thank you Pete Wentz for blessing my eardrums.

I love the “I’m fixing to go Tonya Harding on the whole world’s knee” It shows again the humour that FOB has and the way that they can insert little tidbits into their songs considering that the I, Tonya was released recently and well she has been back in the news. and get this.. claiming she’s the victim. Instead of you know the one who actually got hit.

If I wasn’t sitting down writing this… I would probably be up bouncing around like a fool. The beat is just that good. I adore it.

And well you cannot leave out the fact that Patrick sings in French. I wasn’t ready for it. I did a double take. Listened a handful of times. I mean come on….when you look at the title you think that it is going to be that sad song on the album but boy was I soooo wrong and I don’t think that I have ever been more pleased that I was wrong haha. I hope that they do the music video during the French Revolution. Actually, FOB should really do a video for every song on this album . That is just how good this album is. They really set the bar high for every other album that comes out this year.

The next song is Hold Me Close or Dont

Again.. their genius. I am so dead. Like the clown in spawn says D-E-D dead. They are so flipping talented. However, I remember that this came out in Novemember. I was in the parking lot of Zaxby’s while my husband went in to order because I was having just an anxious day. I couldn’t cope with anything. I just knew something was wrong (Turns out the next day we found out my dad had died.) (don’t you just love intuition) Then I saw a notification that FOB had a new video… yea I get notifications that is how obsessed I am. The first viewing of the video I couldn’t tell if i loved it or not. I did however love the video. The Hispanic culture that was so present Dia de los muertos (if i mispelled that please don’t kill me) I love the hispanic culture. I loved the video it was so artistic. The second time. I tried not to watch the video… it is actually really hard not to I mean have you seen it??? Its damn gorgeous. And what did I find. That the music is beautiful. You can dance to it. The lyrics are genius and well Pete Wentz is there so.

Way to go FOB you are again killing me with your musical talents. and I love it.

The next song is The Last Of The Real Ones

Again, another song that the beat is completely different than the rest of the song. When they announce that they were going to be pushing the release date back… I was upset. But they wanted to provide the fans with the best work they possibly could and boy did they deliver. Sorry for being so mad guys 🙂

I might be a little behind. which honestly I usually am. But I don’t get the whole Llama thing. Is it always Brendon Urie? When will he release the new PATD album?

BTW the video can be kind of confusing and I think I read somewhere that it is a parody of another song. But still. It is really good.

Track #6 is Wilson (expensive Mistakes) I remember when I first really heard this was at the concert and they were above the audience which was really cool.

Don’t we always make expensive mistakes? It’s either I can live on $5 til payday or I blow a whole paycheck at once.

There is a lyric that says “I’ll stop wearing black when they make a darker color” I actually stole my husbands shirt that says this and I wear it to bed. haha. This is a pretty good song. I mean there are some lyrics that I really like. There isn’t really too much that I can say bad about the song. The video is different. Although you know buying Pete Went wouldn’t be a bad idea. Im just joking.

The next song is Church and I know honestly…. I was NOT expecting this song at all. nope. not one bit.

The choir singing in the background really gives this song a nice push. However, whats with Patrick wearing the guitar so high in the video? that I think is my only complaint about the entire album. Not song. The entire album. I told you guys I love this album. I cannot believe I have to wait like a week for it to come in the mail. Patrick’s vocals are something else. They are out of this world. I think they just keep gettin better.

Which brings us to the next song Heaven’s Gate.

Holy $#^* I was not ready for the Soul of Patricks voice. I mean it just opens up the song and you’re like WHATTTTT??? My husband actually asked me who it was because it is so different from what we usually hear from fall out boy. This entire song was beautiful.

The next song on the a Sunshine Riptide

Why do I get the feeling that Pete had something to do with this song being on the album? As apart of that Rap Rock and Roll that Jaden Smith was talking about as the opening act to the opening act. Yeah it was Jaden Smith (not a fan really) then BlackBear (adore him thank you FOB for having him on your tour and introducing me to him) then FOB. The concert was amazing

So there is a little bit of Reggae in this song. As a huge fan of reggae, I appreciate this little bit of a song. This whole album is screaming freedom. They never conform to what a label wants them to sound like.

This song has given me a sunburn. thats how great it is.

The next song is called Bishops Knife Trick it is the final song of the album and it is pure beauty. it is an ear-gasim.

This whole album. they just pushed every single button every sing boundary to put out an album that they could be proud of. And as a huge fan. I couldn’t be more honored that that theyey put so much dedication into a single album.

Here are some other thoughts. Weell I wish Pete would go back to his screamo that was awesome but that is like many many many albums ago. If you are a new listener then you might want to look up Saturday by FOB to see what I am talking about. I wish that it was more than 10 songs. Either way. This is really pushing the bar for all of the other albums out there that are comin out this year. FOB is making the competition this year very steep. I hope the other bands can keep up (doubt it tho)

If you haven’t heard the album yet…. I strongly suggest you go listen.

(*on a side note. My local Wal-Mart didn’t have the FOB new CD… I was mad. So instead of looking it up on their website.. I went to the FOB website and ordered it there. Why should Wal-mart online get any of my money for this CD when they can’t even carry it in the store.)

Thank you for reading my review 🙂

Champion by Fall Out Boy

So yesterday I wrote about being completely scared to go to the Fall Out Boy concert. Well… I did it…. score one for me.. right? maybe. I have been dealing with anxiety, depression and whatever else you want to call it for 10+ years and only 1 of those years was I medicated. So I have gotten very good at hiding it. I have gotten good  at ‘acting’ normal.  There were many times last night where my anxiety wanted to poke its ugly little head out. But I focused on Pete Wentz throughout the whole show and it kind of calmed me down….and honestly I am not sure why.. When the loud pyro went of…which would normally remind me of the car accident… I watched Pete unapologetic rocking out and not caring who watched him. And in the name of Pete Wentz… I jumped, I danced, I rocked and I screamed in the name and love of Fall Out Boy louder than I have ever done at any concert… So Thank you Pete Wentz for coming up on the left side of stage where I so happened to be so that you could be my focus on the show and help me stay out of my anxiety ridden head even if it was only for a few hours.

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So with that being said.. here is a song that I didn’t think I needed til I was hearing it LIVE… now don’t get me wrong… I have loved this song since it came out…but… somehow being there…hearing it loud…live…sung by the band and so many other fans who are probably just like me….gave the song so much more meaning.

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Champion, champion

I’m calling you from the future
To let you know we made a mistake
And there’s a fog from the past
That’s giving me, giving me such a headache

And I’m back with a madness
I’m a champion of the people who don’t believe in champions
I got nothing but dreams inside
I got nothing but dreams

I’m just young enough to still believe, still believe
But young enough not to know what to believe in
Young enough not to know what to believe in, yeah

If this isn’t the truth. Like I am still young enough to believe in things but possibly too broken to believe in things…I guess that because I’m young I might not know what to believe in.

If I can live through this
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
I can do anything
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
I can do anything

This is the part that I sung out with all my heart and all the air in my lungs. I haven’t had the best childhood.  There are parts that I push so far down… I don’t like to talk about it because everyone either judges or provide fake sympathy… and I don’t want it. It happened. Do I wish it didn’t? Hell yeah I wish it didn’t…. but I cannot change the abuse that I went thru any more than I can change the color of the sun. So If I can live thru this… thru all the hell that I have endured… all the emotional rollercoasters…. I can live through anything….I can do anything… I am a CHAMPION….

Champion, champion
Champion, champion

I got rage every day, on the inside
The only thing I do is sit around and kill time
I’m trying to blow out the pilot light, I’m trying to blow out the light

I’m just young enough to still believe, still believe
But young enough not to know what to believe in
Young enough not to know what to believe

If I can live through this
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
I can do anything
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
I can do anything

Champion, champion
I can do anything
Champion, champion
And I can do anything
Champion, champion
And I can do anything
Champion, champion
I can do anything

If I can live through this
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
I can do anything
(I can do anything I can)
If I can live through this
(Can do anything, anything, yeah)
If I can live through this
If I can live through this
If I can live through this,
If I can live through, live through this

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Social #anxiety and Fall Out Boy

Ok so my inner middle school slash high school I’m so emo self was pretty excited three months ago when I got fall out boy tickets. I mean who didn’t have a crush on Pete Wentz?

As time has grown closer and closer I realize this concert scares the shit out of me. Like literally. I’m terrified of going.

Let me tell you why.

Every concert I have ever been to has either been with one of my brothers (older protective brothers) or my amazingly understanding and supportive husband. Even going to wrestling events I went with my mom or my husband.

This concert is the first concert that I will be going to with just my friend. She has anxiety also. So she is one of my friends that I can talk to without being judged.  But shes not my brother or my husband.

I’ve also never driven to the city its in without my husband. Being in a horrible accident a few years ago makes going to these big cities….scary.

Then we got to add the fact that I am going to be surrounded by people I dont know….tonight is a big test on how well I can handle my anxiety….

You see….I want to do things like this and I usually force myself to do it. This makes my 7th concert. And about 7 wwe events….going to 2 more this month as well. However… After forcing myself to do these type of things… I’m usually dead the next day. As in I don’t want to leave my house to socialize with anyone.

Now I’m not a bad parent and the idea that having a mental illness means youre a bad parent usually pisses me off. When I say I’m dead the next day it means that I am going to sit in my living room watching paw patrol playing tea party with my girls.

So….wish me luck tonight guys because I’m leaving for the show in about an hour….. (In thru the nose out thru the mouth….breathe breathe…)