The best concert

 

Choosing a favorite concert is extremely hard. I have been fortunate enough to go to so many. It is one of the few things that I can do while being extremely anxious. Being in the big crowds is extremely shaking as well as the awful traffic that we have to go thru to get there. It is extremely awful for me. But the music is my therapy. My first concert was back when I was 14. My brother and his wife took me. It was an amazing concert and a wonderful introduction into the musical world. I saw 10 years, Mudvayne and Korn.

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While Korn was pretty awesome, mudvayne is the one I was looking forward to since I had spent months since finding out I was going studying and focusing on their music. I had never been to a concert before this one and it was pretty amazing for me because it showed me into this whole new world of live entertainment. If I hadn’t had gone to this show, I don’t know if I would have had the balls to branch out to more shows.

My next concert was also with my brother. It was TOOL. They were so phenomenal. It was such a great show that you didn’t even realize you were standing for 3 hours. It was great. However, I didn’t know as many songs by them as my brother did.

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He loved it so much that when they came back thru, he went right back.

My third concert came about when I was around 15 or 16. Again, with my brother and his wife. This was actually a concert that he had chosen for me to take a friend with me. Which was even more amazing. except for the fact that my friend spent most of the concert throwing up and my brother/sister were making out most of the concert. Either way, I still loved the show. We saw breaking seether, breaking benjamin and three days grace.

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Now this was three days grace before the change of the lead singer. This was right after RIOT came out on the radio. Let’s just say, I lost my voice and my calf muscles were on fire from the amount of jumping. It was amazing.

However, my next concert after that was supposed to be the first concert I was supposed to be attending with my husband and we had purchased 2 tickets weeks in advance. Unfortunately, he had to go to work out of state at the time of the concert. Which happened to be right after we got married, it was a rough time. However, I needed to find someone else to go with me. So I choose my other brother, my oldest brother to go with me and we really had a great time. It was the second time that I saw Breaking Benjamin and found a new band called Young Guns. They were quite amazing and actually got a photo with the lead singer.

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I went to this one thing called weenie roast in 2015. I was pregnant and sick pretty much the entire time but it was still amazing. We saw LIVE which as a 90’s kid hearing Lightning Crashes live was pretty amazing. But the thing that I will always remember is seeing Stone Temple Pilots with Chester Bennington live. It was the only time that I was able to see  Chester in person, which kind of made me very sad when I went back to that same venue earlier this week. tumblr_otep7llKxP1tknl59o1_500

Of course the concert I went to right after that was Green Day. They were flipping amazing and the one concert that I had absolutely wanted to go to for a very long time. Who doesn’t love Billie Joe Armstrong. 3648186636d5ae53e2b40d3e5657b51ce800ccc15f5c1d31f6132fec92c09fe1

Two months after Green Day was FOB and I went with my best friend. That’s Fall Out Boy for those who don’t know what it is. Which I don’t know many who don’t know who fall out boy is. That concert was amazing. It was the first concert I went to without a family member. I let loose. I danced like no one was watching. I screamed lyrics like no one was listening. I was free. And I get to go for my birthday this year which makes me so happy.

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So FOB was in November and I haven’t been to another since then until this week. When we got to be apart of the last Vans Warped Tour. Where I got to see Issues. which was a fantastic experience. I was got to see new music and learn of new bands so it was a win win. I have been listening to Issues since we decided that this was a concert we were going to. So since about January. I really enjoy their music.

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However, the one band that I could no wait to see was Simple Plan. I have been listening to them since I’m Just A Kid came out in 2002. I got their autograph and I got a picture with them I was so excited. I was overjoyed. I was jumping and screaming and dancing and in awe If you have never had the chance to see Simple Plan…. I strongly suggest that you do.

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But which is my favorite.  I honestly cannot choose. Each concert holds specific and strong memories for me. Each event marked a special moment in my heart. They each came at a pivotal moment in my life. I wouldn’t trade any of the events I have been to and I honestly cannot say I have a favorite.

How about you? Do you have a favorite concert?

Green Day

 

I have been a Green Day Fan since forever. I remember listening to Basket Case and When I come Around when I was in elementary school. I loved the sound. I loved the look. And I loved BJA (Billy Joe Armstrong). Unlike most little kids my age…. I followed the group all the way up until now. I still love Green Day. I love the Kill the DJ song even though I cannot play it around my kids. I love the way it makes me feel. I love how when I am cleaning… I can put them on and just jump around. No matter what mood I am in… I can put them on and jump around.

So before my husband and I got married…. we made a deal. I had been to 3 wrestling events as a child. Well my husband, a big fan, had never been to a live event. EVER. So they were coming to our state which made my husband very excited. We had a deal…if I took him to see WWE he would have to take me to a concert. At the time I really wanted to go to an Usher concert since at that time I had had a crush on him for 13 years. but that feeling changed. Especially when I heard that Green Day was making new music and would be going on tour.

 

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Seeing Green Day was something that I always wanted to do but didn’t think too much of it or that I would ever have the chance. There is nothing like seeing a band that you love live. The feeling that you get cannot be explained.

I was looking forward to this concert forever. I mean literally forever. We bought the tickets for the September show in March. So we had a long wait. And we took my nephew with us because he’s a big Green Day fan as well. So the closer it got, the more excited I was. I just couldn’t wait.

I even went as far as to find the set list that they played at this tour and made a playlist of it so that I could listen to every single song they were going to be playing.

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We were estatic. We had everything planned out. However, there is just something that always seems to happen when you’re looking forward to an event. This stop for their tour happened to be in September. Which also happens to be the hurricane season. And what do you know. That specific day we got crazy amount of rain.

As I was sitting in the car pool like waiting to pick the kids up from school…. I could just see the clouds growing darker and my anxiety growing higher. Then the wind started to pick up and I got even more anxious. 2:30 came and there was no school bell. There was no kids or teachers coming to the cars. There was nothing. Except for a phone call stating that the area was under a Tonado Warning and that the kids were to remain in the school until the warning had been lifted. But that we could also come inside the school and sign our kids out if we wanted to. Which was a crappy way to put it because once you went inside to get your kids….they made you feel like crap for taking the kids out into this weather. But I already spent a lot of money on this concert and there was no way that I was going to miss it. So with my brothers consent, I went in and got the kids.

The concert was unfortunately 2 hours away. And I have this crazy thing about me having to drive whenever we go anywhere. My husband is a good driver, don’t get me wrong. He just has a heavy foot. And honestly anyone but my driving scares the crap out of me. So when I am not driving, I’m anxious. So there I was, driving 2 hours to our state capital in a hurricane to see Green Day.

What they didn’t tell me when I bought the tickets was that it was an outdoor theater. Luckily, since I was so excited about this trip and the fact that it was my birthday present and apart of the deal that I had with my husband about taking him to see WWE he would take me to the concert. I bought tickets that was closer to the stage so we were actually under the shelter. And it rained pretty much the whole concert.

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Because it was Green Day… I didn’t mind driving in the rain. Waiting in line in the rain or driving home in the rain. This concert was one in a million. The band gave the performance of a lifetime. I absolutely adored it. I sang every single word to every single song

Social #anxiety and Fall Out Boy

Ok so my inner middle school slash high school I’m so emo self was pretty excited three months ago when I got fall out boy tickets. I mean who didn’t have a crush on Pete Wentz?

As time has grown closer and closer I realize this concert scares the shit out of me. Like literally. I’m terrified of going.

Let me tell you why.

Every concert I have ever been to has either been with one of my brothers (older protective brothers) or my amazingly understanding and supportive husband. Even going to wrestling events I went with my mom or my husband.

This concert is the first concert that I will be going to with just my friend. She has anxiety also. So she is one of my friends that I can talk to without being judged.  But shes not my brother or my husband.

I’ve also never driven to the city its in without my husband. Being in a horrible accident a few years ago makes going to these big cities….scary.

Then we got to add the fact that I am going to be surrounded by people I dont know….tonight is a big test on how well I can handle my anxiety….

You see….I want to do things like this and I usually force myself to do it. This makes my 7th concert. And about 7 wwe events….going to 2 more this month as well. However… After forcing myself to do these type of things… I’m usually dead the next day. As in I don’t want to leave my house to socialize with anyone.

Now I’m not a bad parent and the idea that having a mental illness means youre a bad parent usually pisses me off. When I say I’m dead the next day it means that I am going to sit in my living room watching paw patrol playing tea party with my girls.

So….wish me luck tonight guys because I’m leaving for the show in about an hour….. (In thru the nose out thru the mouth….breathe breathe…)