Killshot or Rap Devil


Alright. So I don’t usually comment on celebrity ‘beef’ because its all over the news and social media. However, the rap battle that is going on between Eminem and Machine Gun Kelly is just too good to not acknowledge. Well, at least on the Eminem part is. Killshot had me rolling, had to listen multiple times to get every diss registered.

So lets dig into this.

In 2012, MGK commented on Eminem daughter calling her hot. He was in his 20’s and she was 16. That in itself is a little weird. But it wasn’t even on Em’s radar as he mentioned on the interview with Sway. It actually goes a lot deeper than that. So much deeper but also kind of petty. Hey, I don’t really care what caused it because it brought us Killshot. Which I happen to be listening to right now.

So, MGK did a freestyle about his idol keeping him from something or another, which if you watch the sway interview, you will see that Em claims that he didn’t, that MGK wasn’t on his radar until MGK started it all.

Then came the Tech N9ne song No Reason (The Mosh Pit). At a little over two minutes into the song, MGK starts his part. His part includes:
“There’s only one option, you’re going to need a doctor I ain’t talking about the one from compton.” If I’m not mistaken, isn’t Dr. Dre from Compton, CA? The one that ‘discovered’ Eminem? The one that has been producing Em his whole career? “You think cause I wrote a pop hit I won’t pop shit” MGK is starting stuff. This is the whole reason why Em went off. Honesty, this and the tweet that I will get to late. And I don’t mean the one about hallie. “Remind ya’ll just rap not gods” Direct message to Em’s hit Rap God. Come on, if you heard the song Rap God….. you will know why it is titled Rap God. Eminem is the most skilled lyricist I have ever seen. He can bend and twist words to rhyme better than I have ever seen before.

So the tweet that I am referencing, Em actually commented on it during his interview with Sway
*Honestly If you haven’t listened to this interview, even though it is 4 parts, you really should. It is very informative and great.*
So Eminem found out about a tweet that MGK put that said you are just rap, not a god.

So Now comes Eminem’s surprise album, which I completely enjoy. The diss that ‘started it’ as some people don’t realize that MGK actually ‘sneak dissed’ Em on another song. The song is called Not Alike. Which he kind of makes fun of today’s rapper’s in it as well.
“Rap God spit lyrical bullets.” This kind of gave key that he was going to go on MGK.

“Roll up with your (gang) you’re gon’ need a arsenal cause this bar is over your head. So you better have arms if you’re gonna pull up. Oh you run the streets huh? Now you wanna come and **** with men, huh? This little &&&&-sucker, he must be feeling himself. He wants to kee up his tough demeanor. so he does a feature, decides to team up with nina. But next time you don’t gotta use teck N9ne if you wanna come at me with a sub, machine gun. And I’m talking to you, but you already know who the **** you are, kely. I don’t use sublims and sure as **** don’t sneak diss but keep on commenting on my daughter Hallie.”

So honestly, I am not a rapper, or much into the rap scene. I listen to who I like and that is about it. I have been listening to Em since Hi My name is…. I honestlly only heard about MGK when I was going to buy tickets to a Linkin Park show cause he was supposed to open for them before Chester died. So I can only give you my opinion on what the words mean and how I take them. So, if you don’t feel this way… Please don’t take offense. Let me know what you think or how you think it means or even who you think won.

So. Roll up with your gang you’re going to need an arsenal…. To me this means that MGK isn’t ready for what he’s about to get into. If you look at other battles Em has had, he has come out on top numerous times. He is directly calling out MGK for his sneak diss on twitter and the Tech N9ne song. I don’t know how many people listened to the song before Not alike came out. Because I honestly didn’t listen to it before Em said something. I went looking for it to see what he was talking about.

“Let me out a silencer on this little non-threatening blonde fairy corball taking shots at me.” Basically, he’s fixing to snuff out the beef and destroy MGK.

“Better call diddy. Just to try to get me off and you better hope I don’t call Trick Trick. #*$# this $#!+ don’t fly in our city. Punk you don’t disrepect OG’s RIP Prodigy.” Diddy is the one that produces MGK. And he’s basically saying that MGK is disrespecting the OG’s like himself.

Then MGK came out with his ‘diss’ I put that in quotations because it doesnt’ honestly sound like a diss. It’s more like a love hate song. With a hook and a chorus.

Rap Devil – MGK

I am not going to post all of the lyrics. You can find the song on Youtube. But I will post some of the ‘disses’.

“Somebody grab him some clippers, his ******* beard is weird. Tough talk from a rapper payin millions for security a year”

His beard is weird? This is the opening line?!?!? Can he grow a beard? And if you were as famous as Em with crazy fans…. wouldn’t you have security too?

“I think my dad’s gone crazy, yeah hallie you right, dad’s always mad cooped up in the studio yellin at the mic.”

Bringing up Hallie again….. not that great of an idea.

“Mad abot somethin I said in 2012 took you six years and a surprise album just to come with a diss”

The Em diss barely mentioned the fact that he, at 22 called a 16 year old hot….. It more referenced the most common events like MGK featuring in the Tech N9ne song.

the picture that he commented on was only part of the reason why Em responded. Not the whole reason for it.

“Homie we get it, we know youre the greatest raper alive.

This is supposed to be a diss song….. yet he’s complimenting him

“All you do is read the dictionary and stay inside”

How else would he grow his ability? When you want to get better at something don’t you continue to try to grow with it??

“&&&& rap god, I’m he rap devil”

If you think about the Bible, the devil was an angel who couldn’t overthrow God and is now below him (hell) so claiming that he’s the Devil is already claiming that he is beneath Em.
“Your last four albums is as bad as your selfie”

This is significant because in a few lines later you will see that he tells Em to go back to Recovery……which was 3 albums ago. Doing a fact check would be great.

“Trying to be the old you so bad you stan yourself”

Stan is an Em song about a fan that was so obsessed with him.

“Yeah I’ll acknowledge that you’re the GOAT, But I’m the Gunner, &#&# I got you in the scope”

Another compliment. GOAT stands for Greatest of All Time.
“Hello Marshall, my name’s Colson you should go back to Recover”

I put this here because He said to go back 4 albums ago….then tells him to go back to recovery. Fact checking….its easy.

“Look what you done to me. Dropped an album just because of me. Damn you in love with me.”

This is just saying that Em is obsessed with MGK… Uhm… If you actually listen to the album… you will know that Em only spent less than 2 minutes in the entire album on MGK.

Or write an apology, over the simple fact, you had to diss to acknowledge me I am the prodigy”

An apology? MGK started it with a sneak diss.

“Last time you saw 8 mile was at home on a treadmill. You were named after a candy I was named after a gangster”

This makes no sense. I understand that 8 Mile is a movie and the place that Em grew up and that he doesn’t go back there…. But to say 8 miles on a treadmile.. Man Em must be in great shape if he can run 8 miles.

The video itself doesn’t make any sense at itself. It is just doesn’t make sense. However, I commented on what I thought was bad about it the lyrics…. lets look at the other side.
Although there are some great things in the song. The fact that beginning of the song you hear someone say “Oh my god ronny” Ronny was the name of the uncle that Em was close to growing up but died. This could be a shot at Em’s heartstrings which means that MGK actually knows some facts about Em.
Going back to the security quote. While I understand why Em has the security…fans are crazy….. The good part about it in regards to the diss is that it is shining a light on the ‘flaws’ of Em’s tough guy persona.

Using actual vocals from one of Em’s song is a great jab at the person. Especially when the vocals are his daughter. Although, Em is extremely protective of his daughter. He watched her graduate from inside the school so he wouldn’t bring any attention to himself and away from her. Plus you just don’t mess with a Daddy’s girl. It’s just not a wise move. but I guess in the sense of trying to poke and diss at the other person….throwing that in there serves its purpose.

The line about calling up Trick Trick is one of the better lines consider that Trick Trick is known from an early 2000’s song Welcome to Detroit where Em called Trick to bring guns to help. This is basically saying that Em cannot fight his own battles and that he needs to call on someone else to fight them for him. While I think the response to Rap Devil won in my book. Some of the reasoning behind this are solid in the instance that its what MGK could come up with. I mean he is going against the GOAT afterall. We’ve seen how this played out before. EM is known for his Rap Battles. Thats how he started. MGK isn’t. So it’s going to be interesting to see how it eventually plays out. I kinda hope it just makes Em come out with more responses.

MGK References Em’s Cleaning out my closet in which he totes around a black shovel that he uses to bury his mom at the end of the song. This could also be why MGK carries a shovel throughout most of the video. Alluding that he is killing Em and going to bury him… (or at least he can hope)

Leave all the Beef to 50… This is referencing the feuds that 50 stood beside Em and ultimately handled himself instead of Em. Basically saying that 50 would be better to handle the beef that Em is.

Referencing Rihanna and Em’s multiple collaboration. Basically that Em is too scared. So scared that he couldn’t even ask for Rihanna number.

Bringing up his baby momma….. I don’t know how I feel about that considering how much Em has already talked about her.

NOW…. lets talk about KillShot!!!!!!

Pretty much everything in this song….. responds directly to MGK’s Rap Devil. So this song is so long….it is kind of hard to post every single response. But I will post some.. and what I think. You can find the actual song on YouTube.

“Rihanna just hit me on a text
Last night I left hickeys on her neck”

This directly responds to MGK saying he was too afraid to ask for Rihanna’s number. Basically saying, he’s not afraid.

“Wait, you just dissed me? I’m perplexed
Insult me in a line, compliment me on the next”

This goes back to what I was saying. MGK would diss him on one line and then compliment him on another like calling him the GOAT.

“Was watchin’ 8 Mile on my NordicTrack”

This goes along with MGK’s line that the last time Em saw 8 Mile was on the treadmill. As NordicTrack is a type of treadmill.

“Stan, Stan, son
Listen, man, Dad isn’t mad”

Basically Em is calling MGK a Stan which is a stalker and fan…. It isn’re realy too far of a reach considering MGK called himself a stan back in 2013.

“But how you gonna name yourself after a damn gun
And have a man-bun?”

While MGK has responded that the ‘man bun’ is because he’s an ‘actor’ and was filming. But this is one of my favorite lines from Killshot.

“Say you got me in a scope, but you grazed me
I say one call to Interscope and you’re Swayze”

This is a direct reference back to Rap Devil where MGK said that he has Em in the scope. I take the Swayze reference as in Patrick Swayze in the movie Ghost. That he would make one phone call to their record label….that they’re both signed to (more on that later) then MGK would be ‘ghost’.

“But you’re a fuckin’ mole hill
Now I’ma make a mountain out of you, woo!”

Have you ever heard the phrase make a mountain out of a mole hill. Basically meaning that you’re making something out of nothing. I take this as saying MGK is nothing. a mole hill. That EM isn’t even worried about him.

“Ho, chill, actin’ like you put the chrome barrel to my bone marrow
Gunner? Bitch, you ain’t a bow and arrow”

This is again going back to the line in Rap Devil claiming that MGK has got Em in his scope. Em is basically saying that he’s not even a gun. He’s a bow and arrow. A weapon that predates the machine gun and is far less lethal. Meaning that Em isn’t worried about MGK because there’s nothing MGK could do to phase Em.

“Are you eating cereal or oatmeal?
What the fuck’s in the bowl, milk? Wheaties or Cheerios?”

So this isn’t really a diss per say. It is more a reference to how the beginning of Rap Devil MGK can be seen eating a bowl of something. Which a lot of fans cannot understand what it actually has to do with the ‘beef’ or the music video at all.

“”Yo, Slim, your last four albums sucked
Go back to Recovery,” oh shoot, that was three albums ago
What do you know? Oops
Know your facts before you come at me, lil’ goof”

Like I said in the Rap Devil….. He wants him to go back to Recovery while also saying to go back 4 albums …. Recovery was 3 albums ago. A simple fact check before writing would have proven beneficial.

“Got more fans than you in your own city, lil’ kiddy, go play
Feel like I’m babysitting Lil Tay”

So saying that he has more fans in MGK’s own city is a direct diss at saying that even his home town like Em more. The Lil Tay references this 9 year old kid who pulled some outlandish stunts for social media. Since MGK said that he needed to read Em a nursery, Em popped off with saying that it is like Em is babysitting MGK, someone puling antics for the attention of the media.
“Got the Diddy okay so you spent your whole day
Shootin’ a video just to fuckin’ dig your own grave
Got you at your own wake, I’m the billy goat”

So basically saying that MGK had to get the okay to record this ‘diss’. While also referencing that MGK called him The GOAT because the Billy Goat is one of the most known goats.

“Bein’ rich-shamed by some prick usin’ my name for clickbait”

So what Em is basically saying is that MGK is only taking the shots….including the ‘sneak diss’ to gain fame for himself. That fans are automatically going to click on it when they hear its about EM. Also, one of the major themes of MGK’s ‘diss’ was that Em is rich….

“Now I gotta cock back, aim
Yeah, bitch, pop Champagne to this! (pop)
It’s your moment
This is it, as big as you’re gonna get, so enjoy it
Had to give you a career to destroy it”

So this goes to the fact that MGK posted a video of him popping champagne when he heard that Em Dropped his name (before he even wrote the ‘diss’) because he has made it very clear that Em is his idol. Em is also saying that because Em has dropped MGK’s name or referrenced him twice now, it is providing MGK with a career… although it is a short one….because Em is destroying it.

“Your red sweater, your black leather
You dress better, I rap better”

This goes to where MGK constantly says he’s tired of the track suits. That he dresses better than Em. Em is acknowledging that MGK might dress better…..but his rap is better.

“Thinks it’s over a pic, I just don’t like you, prick
Thanks for dissing me
Now I had an excuse on the mic to write “Not Alike”
But really, I don’t care who’s in the right
But you’re losin’ the fight you picked:”

Now MGK is constantly saying that this whole ‘beef’ is over the fact that when MGK was 22 he commented on a photo of a 16 year old daughter of Em. Now that would make any dad mad…. here he is saying that comment is not the reason for this. The fact that MGK ‘sneak dissed’ in a Tech N9ne song. But MGK said that its about the photo and majority of everyone believed it.

“I’m sick of you bein’ wack
And still usin’ that mothafuckin’ Auto-Tune
So let’s talk about it (let’s talk about it)”

This is referencing MGK’s chorus where he keeps saying let’s talk about it. Which the chorus used the most autotune for someone who wasn’t even singing….

“I’m sick of your blonde hair and earrings
Just ’cause you look in the mirror and think
That you’re Marshall Mathers (Marshall Mathers)
Don’t mean you are, and you’re not about it”

Em is saying that MGK is just a wanna be him. It’s not the greatest diss line but its still makes you think….is he trying to be him.
Now we’re waiting to see if MGK is going to come back at Killshot… even tho he has posted on social media and on press tours that he’s not even worried about it. But then it was brought to light that the photo of fans sticking their middle fingers up was at a Fall out boy concert and they weren’t privy to why they were asked to do so or the fact that MGK had the shirt on. Some fans tweeted saying he had a sweater on and when he turned toward the camera he removed the sweater to reveal the shirt. To me, that is a little dishonest.

In my personal opinion, and it might be biased because I have liked Em for so long, but I think Em killed it with Killshot. He reerenced pretty much every single thing that MGK threw at him without auto tune, without a chorus, without a hook, in a standard rap battle format.

If you’re up to date on the ‘beef’ or the ‘diss’, let me know what you think.

Generation Rx review

I have been listening to Good Charlotte for at least 13 years now if not more. I remember being in 7th grade when Chronicles of Life and Death came out and I just had to have the death version of the album. This was back when an artist actually put a lot of love an attention on their albums. I listened to that album all the time and still do. Emotionless makes me cry since I am from a broken home with a father that never really cared about his kids. Good Charlotte is one of the many bands that I have been listening to for a very long time.  I remember when The Anthem came out. I remember watching their music videos on MTV. I love this band and I was always infatuated with Joel Madden. He’s just so darn cute.  So since they dropped a new album this week, I thought I would review it for you guys. Let you know what I think, what I hear etc.

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The Madden brothers said: “Our generation was the first to have so many ways to deal with pain. Throughout this century, we’ve seen the whole opioid crisis get worse. We wondered if we were really doing our part. We wanted to bet back out there on the battlefield and spread insight, share experience, and give anything we could to improve lives. The message is you can get through the pain, survive it, and have the life you want.”

Joel Madden explained to Kerrang: “All of us self-medicate in some way with something, I watch young kids today and feel for them, I understand the pain almost more than they do, because I got through to the other side of it. What this record is about is sparking that conversation.”

I think the reason for this album is something that needs to be said today. It really needs to be spoken about more. There have been many discussions about suicide and mental health issues going on lately and I think Good Charlotte putting it into music is fantastic.

So first up is one of their ‘instrumental’ type of introductions. My favorite one is on the Life and Death CD. It had the essence of Tim Burton.

Very mysterious introduction to an album which is what I love from this band. I love how it slowly grows in intensity. It kind of prepares you for the rest of the album. The whispering in the background throughout the beginning is wonderful and mysterious. Unlike the Chronicles album, You actually hear the band singing and playing in this song. The drum is fabulous. It makes you want to move with the beat. Strong. Joel has amazing vocals. I have always thought so.

“Where does all this pain come from?
Where does it hide?
Where does it go?
Looking in the dark I couldn’t see it
Are we divine?
Are we alone?”

Self help is the second song off the album.

“I felt too bad about myself
I never thought I was good enough for anybody else
I couldn’t look love in the eye
I was too broken to try
Life was a cold song that taught me not to cry”

I love how the beginning kind of reminds me of their songs from Good Morning Revival. But then Joel Screams. and I just fan girl it all the way out. The beat is strong and wonderful. I love it. The music doesn’t over power the lyrics and that is what is important for this album. I read somewhere the GC wanted to make this album because of what has been happening lately. The world has lost a lot of wonderful artists.

The part where they sing “I’m looking for a reason to believe” reminds me of We Believe from the Chronicles album.


I love how the guitar is so strong and then abruptly stops it is so classic GC.  I love how they grow yet stay true to who they have always been. You have seen way too many bands becoming too main stream and sound like other bands. Not GC, they are still themselves its amazing.

Shadowboxer is the third song on the album and some of the lyrics I like are:

“All your little shameful looks
Were buried in my heart like hooks
I didn’t want to be here
You told me I was evil
And when I finally ran away
Just trying to escape that pain
I wanted to believe I belonged somewhere on my own”

This song has a very strong introduction. This album seems to be a little heavier than their previous albums but the lyrics are what matters the most. It seems like every song I have listened to on this album have spoken to me. To what I have been thru. What I think when my anxiety is bad. This is an album that I think is fantastic. I am so glad they came out of ‘retirement’ to bring us this. The beat is just right the power of the lyrics are there. They always seem to deliver to their fans. They have stayed true to their fans. They always provide something we can relate to. A way to deal with our pain and anguish. To deal with the voices in our head. This song is for you. For each and every one of you. You are not alone. And Good Charlotte is proving that you are not alone. At all.

I have never heard Joel scream like that, it is giving me early Three Days Grace and early Breaking Benjamin feels. I love it. Gives me chills.

Actual pain was one of their first singles off this album. I heard it about a month ago. I haven’t really been on my Youtube lately because my kids watch it so much. I usually go on to review what they have been watching and well basically to make sure its kid appropriate like the kid channel (mind you, my kids are only allowed on YouTube once they have done homework and chores)
“I’m too scared to look behind that door
I put my trust in all my faith
And every word between us spoken
Why do I believe the things you say
When my heart’s already broken?”

Introduction is nice, its not too overbearing. I like the build up. The music video is interesting. Since it is one of the first videos from the album it is nice to see how the members look especially since like 13 years ago  me and my 3 friends were obsessed with them. They have aged very well. I love the build up to the chorus. Its strong. Different. The flash of skulls gives the songs a kind of dark feel which is great, visually. It kind of gives the song that feeling that this is more than what meets the eye. I love the vocals in the background towards the end, it accompanies the music greatly. Makes you want to move along to the beat. I do think that the music is a little louder than the vocals. Not so much so that you can’t hear the lyrics. But enough so that you’re not really paying attention to what is being said. So far that is my only complaint about this song.

“And we would lay awake at night
Looking at the stars, thinking of the ones we’ve lost
And wonder where they are
When we lit another candle, she asked me who’s to blame”

I think this is a great song. It isn’t necessarily saying that there is no God. It is just one of those things that when we see all the bad in the world it makes some question the existence of an entity known as God.  It is something people fight with in their mind so much. It is one of the greatest debates of faith. I don’t think that this song is trying to make you believe that there is no God. It is simple verbalizing an internal argument that many are too afraid to say. It is like I say all the time, music says the things that our hearts are too afraid to mutter.

The tempo and sound of this song are different than the ones prior. It does pick up the pace just slightly about twenty seconds into the song. This song focus more on the lyrics and Joel’s vocals. Which they are amazing. I am not too sure about the computerized high pitch behind Joel’s vocals. He doesn’t need any help.

“I want you to know, you’re not alone
Everything you are and everything you’re not
When happiness dies and the pain, it will come
Life’s funny, it’s a game we play
You know we run”

I love the piano on this song. It is a welcoming change from the rest of the album. And the focus on Joel’s vocals overpowering everything in the beginning is fabulous. The guitar is great as well. The lyrics are phenomenal. I think this is one of those songs that many will be able to relate to. It builds up so fantastically. The guitar solo is one of my favorite parts of this song. It well executed and well timed. It provides a new element for this song.

Locked out
You gave me your demons
You weren’t around”

I am not sure who Sam Carter is. But this song has a heavier feel than the rest of the album. I looked up Sam Carter, I haven’t heard of him before, but I know he is a British Guitarist. And I think he provided a great element to this song. It might not be my favorite on the album but the instrumental of the song is great.

“I’m just holding on to my better demons
And I really need them not to fail me now
I speak in tongues but I can never free them
And my spirit weakens but I won’t back down”

I am not too keen on the introduction. I understand it for the story telling but because I have my volume up to soak in all the GC goodness, it kind of hurt my ears. I like the music on this one The drums and the guitars. It is a nice song. It has a decent tempo. I still don’t know about the ‘news’ part of the intro and ending. It’s just not really my forte. But I do love the guitar on this track how its louder at one part of the song in the left speaker and the drums in are more in the right speaker. It gives it a unique kind of feel.

“Just forget the ones who let you go
Forget the ones too scared to know you”

This song reminds me of the Madden Brothers album that they put out a few years ago. Just Joel and Benji. It’s kind of laid back and chill all the while still holding to their sound. Just the right amount of bass and heaviness. It is a great song and a great way to end the album. It is like they’re telling everyone of their fans that they love them. That they understand what they’ve been thru, what they’re going thru. But that the fans can always count on them. I love that about them.


I knew this album was coming out…. I knew it was coming in September. I didn’t know it was coming so soon. And with Hurricane Florence hitting, I didn’t pay attention until it popped across my phone that Good Charlotte had a new album. Honestly, listening to it and review it has been a great distraction from the anxiety that is a hurricane. I hope you at least give each song a try and let me know down below in the comments what you think.

The best concert


Choosing a favorite concert is extremely hard. I have been fortunate enough to go to so many. It is one of the few things that I can do while being extremely anxious. Being in the big crowds is extremely shaking as well as the awful traffic that we have to go thru to get there. It is extremely awful for me. But the music is my therapy. My first concert was back when I was 14. My brother and his wife took me. It was an amazing concert and a wonderful introduction into the musical world. I saw 10 years, Mudvayne and Korn.


While Korn was pretty awesome, mudvayne is the one I was looking forward to since I had spent months since finding out I was going studying and focusing on their music. I had never been to a concert before this one and it was pretty amazing for me because it showed me into this whole new world of live entertainment. If I hadn’t had gone to this show, I don’t know if I would have had the balls to branch out to more shows.

My next concert was also with my brother. It was TOOL. They were so phenomenal. It was such a great show that you didn’t even realize you were standing for 3 hours. It was great. However, I didn’t know as many songs by them as my brother did.


He loved it so much that when they came back thru, he went right back.

My third concert came about when I was around 15 or 16. Again, with my brother and his wife. This was actually a concert that he had chosen for me to take a friend with me. Which was even more amazing. except for the fact that my friend spent most of the concert throwing up and my brother/sister were making out most of the concert. Either way, I still loved the show. We saw breaking seether, breaking benjamin and three days grace.


Now this was three days grace before the change of the lead singer. This was right after RIOT came out on the radio. Let’s just say, I lost my voice and my calf muscles were on fire from the amount of jumping. It was amazing.

However, my next concert after that was supposed to be the first concert I was supposed to be attending with my husband and we had purchased 2 tickets weeks in advance. Unfortunately, he had to go to work out of state at the time of the concert. Which happened to be right after we got married, it was a rough time. However, I needed to find someone else to go with me. So I choose my other brother, my oldest brother to go with me and we really had a great time. It was the second time that I saw Breaking Benjamin and found a new band called Young Guns. They were quite amazing and actually got a photo with the lead singer.


I went to this one thing called weenie roast in 2015. I was pregnant and sick pretty much the entire time but it was still amazing. We saw LIVE which as a 90’s kid hearing Lightning Crashes live was pretty amazing. But the thing that I will always remember is seeing Stone Temple Pilots with Chester Bennington live. It was the only time that I was able to see  Chester in person, which kind of made me very sad when I went back to that same venue earlier this week. tumblr_otep7llKxP1tknl59o1_500

Of course the concert I went to right after that was Green Day. They were flipping amazing and the one concert that I had absolutely wanted to go to for a very long time. Who doesn’t love Billie Joe Armstrong. 3648186636d5ae53e2b40d3e5657b51ce800ccc15f5c1d31f6132fec92c09fe1

Two months after Green Day was FOB and I went with my best friend. That’s Fall Out Boy for those who don’t know what it is. Which I don’t know many who don’t know who fall out boy is. That concert was amazing. It was the first concert I went to without a family member. I let loose. I danced like no one was watching. I screamed lyrics like no one was listening. I was free. And I get to go for my birthday this year which makes me so happy.


So FOB was in November and I haven’t been to another since then until this week. When we got to be apart of the last Vans Warped Tour. Where I got to see Issues. which was a fantastic experience. I was got to see new music and learn of new bands so it was a win win. I have been listening to Issues since we decided that this was a concert we were going to. So since about January. I really enjoy their music.


However, the one band that I could no wait to see was Simple Plan. I have been listening to them since I’m Just A Kid came out in 2002. I got their autograph and I got a picture with them I was so excited. I was overjoyed. I was jumping and screaming and dancing and in awe If you have never had the chance to see Simple Plan…. I strongly suggest that you do.


But which is my favorite.  I honestly cannot choose. Each concert holds specific and strong memories for me. Each event marked a special moment in my heart. They each came at a pivotal moment in my life. I wouldn’t trade any of the events I have been to and I honestly cannot say I have a favorite.

How about you? Do you have a favorite concert?

Panic! at the Disco… Say Amen

*WARNING* The video could be a trigger for those who cannot do gore!

(like my best friend)

I don’t know about anyone else but I love Brendon Urie. I have been listening to them since I wrote sins came out back when I was in middle school. I love how their sound changes with every album. So when Brendon kept dropping hints on his instagram about something big coming… I was excited. Everytime my notification popped up that he posted something new… I was there watching. Its so bad that I already preordered the album.

In March.

And album that doesn’t come out til June.

I mean that is way too long to wait. But I did anyway and I ordered a PATD hoodie too because who doesn’t A.) love hoodies and B.) love band merch.

He also released the dates of his upcoming tour. But unfortunately, they will be here one day before I have to go to Charlotte for the Warped and thats just too much driving because both places are about an hour to 2 hour drive from my home and its a lot of money to be spending on concerts ;(

So when I found out he had a music video out for Say Amen (Saturday night) I knew that I had to go ahead and watch it. But I didn’t decide to write a review about it til about the 100th time of watching it because I couldn’t really critique it in a bad manner because I was so in awe. PATD has out done themselves again. Brendon is pure genius. and oh so talented.

Ok so when I preordered the album I got 2 songs free which are Say amen and F*$# a silver lining. I had kids in the car so I couldn’t listen to the one with profanity in almost every stanza. So I listened to say amen almost the whole way home. And when he hit that high note…..I couldn’t help but say ‘damn’ it was so beautiful and pure and amazing. This beautiful man has some amazing chops.

So here we go.

The video opens up with a breaking news story that this ancient artifact, known as the devils key, has been stolen. And this key is worth so much. And I think the name of the key has something to do with why he turns into the demonic person in a prior song….Emporer new clothes…

So we go from seeing the news to just hearing in the background of this house while these men, in all black and ski masks, break into this house. They’re all waking towards this door where there is water running. The water stops. The door opens. And out comes Brendon (eep) and he is unphased that these guys are here.

Literally. Not even a flinch. Instead he texts his ‘girlfriend’ that he’ll need 30 minutes before she can come.

Now this seems like it’ll have a cool little fight sequence. PG maybe PG13. There isn’t anything really gory in music videos.

Well, obviously Brendon Urie has had conversations with Quentin Tarantino because what I thought would be a simple choregraphed but not anything too bloody dance fight turned into a scene out of Kill Bill. I mean someone gets a sword stuck in their skull. he cuts someone’s hand off and slams another guys head into the butcher knife. It is crazy. I mean they explored a lot of different ways to kill someone.

It is straight gore.

Ok so they’re dead.

and the doorbell rings

its the girlfriend.

And they get hot and heavy pretty fast.

Really fast.

But how is the dead people not affecting their uhm foreplay?

But then Brendon starts taking his shirt off and the girl see’s the key.

She wants it.

And she kicks Brendon in the balls right as he hits the high note

as in this is why his voice goes so high which is pretty funny.

But she starts to punch him and her form is so flipping wrong it looks so bad. but then she hits him with a bat.

And stills the key

as he is laying down on the ground dying. You hear the sirens in the back ground and at the end you hear the heartbeat.

The same heart beat that is at the beginning of This Is Gospel.

Okay I know I should have probably reviewed the lyrics but the video was just so amazing.

so heres the link for the video Maybe I’ll do the lyrics next if ya’ll want.

Say Amen

#Lyrics Just Give Me a Reason-Pink

Right from the start
You were a thief, you stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me, that weren’t all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them
Now you’ve been talking in your sleep oh oh
Things you never say to me oh oh
Tell me that you’ve had enough
Of our love, our love
Just give me a reason, just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
It’s in the stars, it’s been written in the scars on our hearts
We’re not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
I’m sorry I don’t understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine (Oh we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin’
And it’s all in your mind (Yeah but this is happenin’)
You’ve been havin’ real bad dreams oh oh
You used to lie so close to me oh oh
There’s nothing more than empty sheets between our love, our love
Oh our love, our love
Just give me a reason, just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent and we can learn to love again
I never stop, you’re still written in the scars on my heart
You’re not broken just bent and we can learn to love again
Oh tear ducts and rust
I’ll fix it for us
We’re collecting dust, but our love’s enough
You’re holding it in
You’re pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We’ll come clean
Just give me a reason just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent and we can learn to love again
It’s in the stars, it’s been written in the scars on our hearts
That we’re not broken just bent and we can learn to love again
Just give me a reason, just a little bit’s enough
Just a second we’re not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
It’s in the stars, it’s been written in the scars on our hearts
That we’re not broken just bent, and we can learn to love again
Oh we can learn to love again
Oh we can learn to love again oh oh
Oh that we’re not broken just bent and we can learn to love
The song is about desire to hold onto a relationship even when it appears to be breaking down
This song has meant a lot to me. Unfortunately, I tend to blow arguments way out of proportion and I think every thing I fuss about will be the last argument. That I ruined my relationship. And when I listen to this song during an argument I feel like maybe I am not being so awful that maybe we can get passed this.
Please note that I have been with my husband for 9 years. I have always thought that any argument is the ‘big’ one. It never is. We always work things out. It is my anxiety that makes me feel like I messed up, that we are having the big one. Yay for anxiety right.

#Lyric Are We All We Are-Pink

Are we all we are
Are we all we are
Cut to now holy wow
When did everything become such a hell of a mess?
Maybe now, maybe now
Can somebody come and take this off my chest?
I know you think it’s not your problem
I know you think that God will solve them
But if your shit is not together it’ll never be
You and me
Plant the seed
Open up and let it be
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

Just sing it loud until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Seven seconds
Seven seconds
That is all the time you got to make your point
My attention, my attention’s like an infant tryin’ to crawl around this joint
I know I’m better than the masses
But we’re all followin’ our asses
And if our shit is not together
It’ll never be
You and me
Plant the seed
Open up and let it be
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (rest of)
Just sing it loud until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Four, that’s how many years it took me to get through the lesson
That I had to do it all my own
Three, that’s how many Hail Mary’s they would pay for me
Thinkin’ I was gonna end up all alone
Two, for second chances that you’ve given me
Can it be lucky me, lucky me
Now let’s go
One, it’s what we are, it’s what we are

Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)

We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)
Just sing it loud until the kids will sing it right back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are
We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)
We’ve had our fill
We’ve had enough
We’ve had it up to here
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

We are the people that you’ll never get the best of
Not forget the rest of (Rest of)
Cut to the future sing it loud and take the power back
Are we all we are
Are we all we are

Self empowerment anthem. Stand up for yourself message

I absolutely love this song. the beat is so amazing. Its upbeat and empowering. It’s a song I want to listen to when I need to feel better about myself. I already have a low self esteem and anxiety makes it that much worse. I love Pink. She’s just her. I mean she doesn’t ever conform to what society thinks she should be. She does what she wants. She sings what she wants. She is amazing and such a role model.

#Lyrics Shut Up-Simple Plan

There You Go
You’re always so right
It’s all a big show
It’s all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can’t get it right
It’s like I’m the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It’s all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you’re special
But i know and I know and I know
And we know
That you’re not

You’re always there to point out
My mistakes
And shove them in my face
It’s like I’m the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Don’t tell me who I should be
And don’t try to tell me what’s right for me
Don’t tell me what I should do
I don’t want to waste my time
I’ll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

so shut up, shut up, shut up
Don’t want to hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You’ll never stop me
Nothing you say
Is gonna bring me down

Bring me down (shut up, shut up, shut up)
Bring me down
Bring me down(shut up shut up shut up)
Shut up, Shut up, Shut up!

This song shows how people don’t want to be what others want them to be.

This song used to be my anthem for people who use to tell me who I needed to be. Or trying to be my parent just because all I had was my mom. This was my song. I know its not like the best song out there but its good. It might be repetative but its such a good song

@FallOutBoy #FOBMania album review

The first song is Young and Menance I think this is a wonderful way to start off a cd. When the video first came out I remember thinking HOLY$#^* there is a new FOB song and its just so different.

I also loved the part where it said “Oops I did it again….. I only wrote this down to make you press rewind” Now I am a 90’s baby and I remember the Spears era when Oops I did it again was very popular. This little tid bit in the song made me giggle and it is just so FOB to have that.

I really enjoy this song. When we went to the concert, they handed out these little purple pieces of paper that when they played Young and Menance they asked us to put the paper over our phone’s flashlights to show our support. and honestly…. I don’t think FOB will ever lose my support they are a great band.

The next song is Champion and goodness I love this song. I mean I love it so much that I have cried. Serious big yucky tears. Yes FOB you are BACK with a madness and I know I am more than excited. I actually wish you’d come back already just so I can see you again. I adore Pete Wentz and if I ever met him…. I probably would have a heart attack.

What does this song mean to me? Why do I cry? I have anxiety disorder. I overthink a lot. I’m empathetic. I’m emotional. And I haven’t had the ideal childhood. I have felt like I was manipulated, emotionally abused, verbally abused, sexually abused. And this song. “If I can live thru this. I can do anything” Thank you FOB. I needed this song. More than you could ever know. I can do anything. and when I feel like I can’t… I listen to this song to remind myself.

The third song on the track is Stay Frosty Royal Milk Tea, this song starts off with such a strong bass beat and is just so in your face loud. Thank you Pete Wentz for blessing my eardrums.

I love the “I’m fixing to go Tonya Harding on the whole world’s knee” It shows again the humour that FOB has and the way that they can insert little tidbits into their songs considering that the I, Tonya was released recently and well she has been back in the news. and get this.. claiming she’s the victim. Instead of you know the one who actually got hit.

If I wasn’t sitting down writing this… I would probably be up bouncing around like a fool. The beat is just that good. I adore it.

And well you cannot leave out the fact that Patrick sings in French. I wasn’t ready for it. I did a double take. Listened a handful of times. I mean come on….when you look at the title you think that it is going to be that sad song on the album but boy was I soooo wrong and I don’t think that I have ever been more pleased that I was wrong haha. I hope that they do the music video during the French Revolution. Actually, FOB should really do a video for every song on this album . That is just how good this album is. They really set the bar high for every other album that comes out this year.

The next song is Hold Me Close or Dont

Again.. their genius. I am so dead. Like the clown in spawn says D-E-D dead. They are so flipping talented. However, I remember that this came out in Novemember. I was in the parking lot of Zaxby’s while my husband went in to order because I was having just an anxious day. I couldn’t cope with anything. I just knew something was wrong (Turns out the next day we found out my dad had died.) (don’t you just love intuition) Then I saw a notification that FOB had a new video… yea I get notifications that is how obsessed I am. The first viewing of the video I couldn’t tell if i loved it or not. I did however love the video. The Hispanic culture that was so present Dia de los muertos (if i mispelled that please don’t kill me) I love the hispanic culture. I loved the video it was so artistic. The second time. I tried not to watch the video… it is actually really hard not to I mean have you seen it??? Its damn gorgeous. And what did I find. That the music is beautiful. You can dance to it. The lyrics are genius and well Pete Wentz is there so.

Way to go FOB you are again killing me with your musical talents. and I love it.

The next song is The Last Of The Real Ones

Again, another song that the beat is completely different than the rest of the song. When they announce that they were going to be pushing the release date back… I was upset. But they wanted to provide the fans with the best work they possibly could and boy did they deliver. Sorry for being so mad guys 🙂

I might be a little behind. which honestly I usually am. But I don’t get the whole Llama thing. Is it always Brendon Urie? When will he release the new PATD album?

BTW the video can be kind of confusing and I think I read somewhere that it is a parody of another song. But still. It is really good.

Track #6 is Wilson (expensive Mistakes) I remember when I first really heard this was at the concert and they were above the audience which was really cool.

Don’t we always make expensive mistakes? It’s either I can live on $5 til payday or I blow a whole paycheck at once.

There is a lyric that says “I’ll stop wearing black when they make a darker color” I actually stole my husbands shirt that says this and I wear it to bed. haha. This is a pretty good song. I mean there are some lyrics that I really like. There isn’t really too much that I can say bad about the song. The video is different. Although you know buying Pete Went wouldn’t be a bad idea. Im just joking.

The next song is Church and I know honestly…. I was NOT expecting this song at all. nope. not one bit.

The choir singing in the background really gives this song a nice push. However, whats with Patrick wearing the guitar so high in the video? that I think is my only complaint about the entire album. Not song. The entire album. I told you guys I love this album. I cannot believe I have to wait like a week for it to come in the mail. Patrick’s vocals are something else. They are out of this world. I think they just keep gettin better.

Which brings us to the next song Heaven’s Gate.

Holy $#^* I was not ready for the Soul of Patricks voice. I mean it just opens up the song and you’re like WHATTTTT??? My husband actually asked me who it was because it is so different from what we usually hear from fall out boy. This entire song was beautiful.

The next song on the a Sunshine Riptide

Why do I get the feeling that Pete had something to do with this song being on the album? As apart of that Rap Rock and Roll that Jaden Smith was talking about as the opening act to the opening act. Yeah it was Jaden Smith (not a fan really) then BlackBear (adore him thank you FOB for having him on your tour and introducing me to him) then FOB. The concert was amazing

So there is a little bit of Reggae in this song. As a huge fan of reggae, I appreciate this little bit of a song. This whole album is screaming freedom. They never conform to what a label wants them to sound like.

This song has given me a sunburn. thats how great it is.

The next song is called Bishops Knife Trick it is the final song of the album and it is pure beauty. it is an ear-gasim.

This whole album. they just pushed every single button every sing boundary to put out an album that they could be proud of. And as a huge fan. I couldn’t be more honored that that theyey put so much dedication into a single album.

Here are some other thoughts. Weell I wish Pete would go back to his screamo that was awesome but that is like many many many albums ago. If you are a new listener then you might want to look up Saturday by FOB to see what I am talking about. I wish that it was more than 10 songs. Either way. This is really pushing the bar for all of the other albums out there that are comin out this year. FOB is making the competition this year very steep. I hope the other bands can keep up (doubt it tho)

If you haven’t heard the album yet…. I strongly suggest you go listen.

(*on a side note. My local Wal-Mart didn’t have the FOB new CD… I was mad. So instead of looking it up on their website.. I went to the FOB website and ordered it there. Why should Wal-mart online get any of my money for this CD when they can’t even carry it in the store.)

Thank you for reading my review 🙂

#Lyrics Perfect-Simple Plan

Hey, Dad, look at me
Think back, and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I’m wasting my time
Doing things I want to do?
But it hurts when you disapproved all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for
You can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t care any more
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’s all right
‘Cause we lost it all
And nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
And nothing’s gonna make this right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard just to talk to you
But you don’t understand
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
‘Cause we lost it all
Nothin’ lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
The drummers parents weren’t supportive of his career choice so he and the lead singer wrote this song to prove that they could make it and to say sorry.
But to fans…. it took a much more deeper meaning. It was more. It was every teenage angst feeling.  I know it is how I felt a lot through my puberty years. My teenage years. My so called rebellion years (I wasn’t that rebellious.) I wanted to be perfect but I can never be perfect. I wanted to make my mom proud. I wanted to make my brothers proud but it just wasn’t in the cards for me. I mean… I am still trying but it doesn’t hold as much disappointment as it did then. I know now that all I can do is try my best every single day.

#Lyrics Walk Away-Good Charlotte

I made this bed
I choose to lie in it
Live with my regrets
Sleep with what I said
Could this be the end
I’m standing on the edge of everything I wanted now
I was afraid
I was afraid
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I fear
It’s easier to walk away from everything
Separate my soul with all the things we shared
I’m falling to pieces
Now say a prayer for me (Say a prayer for me)
When you go to bed (’cause)
I’m in need of your faith now
I was afraid
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I fear
It’s easier to walk away from everything
If we could just re-set and live in happiness
Instead of out regrets, We would salvage everything
We don’t have to walk away
Pray for me now, I’m in need of faith
Pray for me now, I’m in need
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I feared
It’s easier to walk away from everything
If we could just re-set and live in happiness
Instead of out regrets, We’d salvage everything
Maybe I’m just scared to face the things I failed
It’s easier to walk away from everything
Walk away from everything
Walk away from everything
This song is about how everyone has their demons and how sometimes you feel it is better to walk away but its not always that simple and sometimes you just have to face them.
I remember when this album came out. I really do… I was in Middle School and my group of friends thought it was the best album of the year…We just had to have it. But not the life version. The Death version was the one to go to. That album… there was just so many good songs on there. Like S.O.S, Walk Away, We Believe…darn now i’m going to have to pull it out and listen to it