Dreams and a little update

Sorry I haven’t written in awhile. It has been a crazy few weeks since I last posted. My last post, I let you guys know why I had to leave a job that I had.

Well….

Life has a weird way of getting crazy before hopefully getting better.

So while I had just started my work from home job, my husband decided to follow a dream that he has had since forever. becoming a professional wrestlers.

Luckily for us, we found a training school that was close by and affordable. So for the past 2 and a half months…he’s been training.

It is such an inspiration. Watching him strive for this dream. Especially since I have way to bad of anxiety to even try to follow any dream. The kind that tells me I am not good enough at anything. I am a perfectionist in the worst way possible.

But I love that my husband is doing this. It is teaching our girls that no matter what…. you can always try for your dream. You can always pick yourself up and shoot for the stars. There was a saying on something that said shoot for the moon because even if you miss, you’ll land on the stars.

I am that wife tho. I am that wife who will fight for his dream. I am that wife, that even tho I have serious anxiety issues, will go to any event. Mingle with anyone to help him grow in this business. I am that wife who will make 96 treats for the training class. I am that wife that will create shirts for other wrestlers so that my husbands name is out there. I am that wife that even tho I hurt, will get up and train with my husband days in and days out.

I am that wife.

That will make sure my husband gets his dream.

But that is only a portion of what life has in store for us.

I wrote about my inlaws being complete idiots. Favoring one child over the other. Then blaming said child and myself instead of owning up to their own mistakes. it got to the point that my husband attempted to take a restraining order out on them. What caused this? The fact that his father was sitting at the top of our driveway in a car that we didn’t recognize and waited. He waited til my husband came home and then followed him into our driveway and proceeded to try to intimidate him. The judge didn’t side with us. Instead, the judge said theres no law against being a jerk. So yay. We have proceeded to have no contact with them.

That is….until I ran into my FIL in the store. Where he continued trying to tell me how bad a person I am. How all of this is my fault. How his son wouldn’t do any of this. That I was making my husband do all of this. Let’s just say that caused a major anxiety attack. I am not big on confrontation. I just don’t like it. So dealing with that was quite annoying.

But I cannot let idiots steer us away from protecting our family and striving for our dreams. If I let every anxious situation determine what I am going to do or be, I would probably never leave my room. So here is putting my FIL behind me and moving towards being the wife of a professional wrestler. It will be our second greates adventure. The first is being a parent.

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