My anxiety consists of my brain never turning off. I can ask my husband what he’s thinking about and he’ll say nothing. But if he asks me….there is always something.
Actually, if I am being honest, my thoughts are pretty ADHD. There is always multiple things on my mind.
Like right now…. I am thinking about my father in law and that thought isn’t too pretty at the moment. I am thinking about how we still haven’t spread my dads ashes. I need to go grocery shopping. I need a nap. Stupid allergy’s to milk (and no its not tummy issues, my allergy makes me itchy…really itchy) How I was so careless to consume so many milk based products on such in such a short time period. I am thinking about school and how am I going to finish paying for it. Since I pretty much ran out of financial aid for it. I am freaking out about the upcoming warped tour because its so many people in a small facility. I am thinking about if I am a good enough parent, friend, wife, child.
And all that is running in my head right now. My attention span is really small. Like really short. Shorter than a fuse. In the 10th grade my Algebra 2 teacher use to switch subjects every 3-5 minutes. One day, a student asked why and she told them it was because of me. Because if she spent any more than 10 minutes on a problem, she would lose my attention.
Everyone always say they need a vacation from their life. To go away to the beach and be free of their problems for just a little bit.
Unfortunately, even when I am on vacation I am constantly overthinking, over analyzing every single thing. Even if I am 3 hours away from home. My mind is consumed with what is going on. What I will need to do when I get home
Yes, a vacation to the beach would be nice. But what I really need is a vacation, a break from my own thoughts.
I would love to know what it was like to not think about anything even if it was just for a few moments. I hate it. Honestly, I do. Because the more I think about something, the more anxious I become. My brother always tells me ‘well don’t think about it’. If only it was that easy. I try to mediate. I tried yoga. I tried taking walks. I tried the showers and the baths. I have tried everything. And I can never turn my thoughts off.
Is there some way to create an off switch??? I wish I knew. Cause I could really use a break.
If you ever find an off switch can you let me know, I am desperate for some sleep without a hundred thoughts going through my head
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Right it’s never ending and then my dreams are so vivid
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And wake you up. I am in complete sympathy with you. The only way I have found is to replay films in my head, but that only gets you so far
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I go to sleep watching things that don’t have triggers like Gilmore girls or the big bang theory.
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I use to watch things like mock the week or Broklyn nine nine, but now I find they just keep me up
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I watch things I’ve seen a hundred times that I already know what’s going to happen so like friends haha
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I think because I have seen them so often, my brain just switches off them and onto whatever issue it wants to bug me with
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That makes sense
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🙂 I am trying to find something else. At the moment I am watching Hell’s kitchen USA but I have been sucked up in the drama
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I love Ramsey haha
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He is great, I have gone back to season 10 because season 17 has just started in the UK
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Oh wow didn’t realize there were that many seasons
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I know, it shocked me how long I have been watching it for
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Right that’s crazy
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15 years I think
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Wow that’s impressive considering it’s not a soap opera. My mom’s been watching the same soap for 30 years
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coronation street?
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Days of our lives
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Is that still going?
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Yup lol
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wow
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Agreed
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LOL
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And she watches it every day Monday thru Friday
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LOL That is devotion
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Pretty much haha and I’ve been bored enough to have watched it with her thru out the years
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LOL I know that feeling. My mum loves star trek I can’t remember the amount I have sat through now
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It’s sad because I know the characters and some Of the history
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If it helps, I don’t watch soaps here and yet I seem to know the characters and some of the history as well, it just seems to seep into me somehow
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Haha I actually use to like the 90’s soap called Passions. It has Kevin from This Is Us. Justin Heartly. Which I love This Is Us. It pulls at all of your emotions and most of the actors I have loved from something else. Like Jack (Milo Ventimilga *thats probably wrong*) I watched him in Gilmor Girls…well still do because I watch GG every day because its something I have seen before and I can just put it on for the noise. Kevin (justin Heartly) I watched in Passions and Smallville. Rebecca (Mandy Moore) I remember her sing stupid cupid in Princess Diaries. and Randal (Sterling K. Brown) was in Army wives
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I use to watch lots of soaps when I was younger, now not so much
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I only have cause of my mom haha
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I am now an expert at Fireman Sam and Bob the builder
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Ah yes as am I with paw patrol
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I spend hours thinking of how I would like to kill Ryder
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Or how old is he to be driving and running a rescue team
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And where he gets all the money from
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And how can I get that kind of funds and talking dogs
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I bet he doesn’t pay tax :-p
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I think it’s based in Canada
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LOL maybe, I also want to know how come the cats don’t talk
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Or the chicken. How is it limited to just those dogs did they become exposed to some green slime?
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Also how did the chicken become deputy mayor, did no one think that was weird?
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And why did no one check the mayor’s sanity level for making the chicken deputy mayor
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LOL exactly, and why does she keep the deputy mayor in her bag, that would surely be frowned upon
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I hope it isn’t an expensive designer bag cause it’s probably filled with poo
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LOL I had never thought of that, its an excellent point
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Yeah and don’t get me started on pj masks haha
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Oh my God, that one drives me nuts as well, were the hell are the parents and why are none of them noticing their children not being out at night. Why is no one tired after being up for most the night
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And how did the parents know that these kids have some kind of superpower?? why are the parents not shown and why are the parents not more strict on their kids. And how is NO ADULT seeing any of this? I mean their battles are out in the town on the street. it makes no sense. How old are these kids anyway? and what is a PJ Mask? Is it some kind of mask you put on to go to sleep?
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so many questions and not a single answer that will make sense
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The logic of kid shows haha.
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I hate them all, I limit it to an hour at a time, sometimes only 15 minutes depending on what they are
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I let my kids watch tv thru out the day as long as it is something that will teach them something like Bubble Guppies and Team Umi Zoomi. Although there are a lot of quesstions about Paw Patrol I do like the concept of team work and helping that it promotes.
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Our TV is normally on all day just not on kids channels. Although it is tough trying to find something that is age appropriate for him at 3pm in the afternoon which is stupid. I just can’t watch children’s TV for long periods of time, although I must admit Netflix has helped
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I love Netflix have you tried superwhy
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No, I don’t have that here
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You might be able to YouTube it
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I shall 🙂
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It’s cute and wallykazam
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Monkey has a playdate this afternoon, so I shall look it up then
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Watch true crime shows. That’s what I do. To turn my brain off. I don’t know why that works. Or baking shows, because the all you are thinking about is where can I go to get some of that tasty stuff. It sucks having a brain that’s always in overdrive!!!
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I cannot watch true crime shows because my anxiety turns into paranoia. I like food shows and remodeling shows
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See I get anxiety with remodeling shows, because those shows make me realize how many things we have to do around our house.
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Agreed but it also gives me ideas of what I could do in time
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Try, but I want it all done NOW!!!
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Right I’m madly impatient
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I think there was more to that comment I sent, it seems a bit disjointed, but I cant remember what I was trying to say.
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It’s okay I do the same thing
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