#Lyrics Broken as me-Papa Roach

You’re just as broken as me
Shut your mouth ’cause I can see through the lies
We’re only getting sicker from the secrets we hide
Disaster is, a master is, we lie here burning in bed
But something tells me I cannot kill someone new yet
I will knock you out, burn you today
I will forgive, forgive, ’cause I know that it will set me free
But all that’s left is the emptiness inside of me (my heart)
You murder my heart, broke my just and watch me fade away
Now I see, now I see
That you’re just as broken as me
You’re just as broken as me
You always play the victim and you just can’t decide
If the vicious way we loved each other, fucked up our lives
Well, we’re standing in the aftermath, our emptiness is what’s left
And if you really love me, will you love me to death
I will love you until the end
I will forgive, forgive, ’cause I know that it will set me free
But all that’s left is the emptiness inside of me (my heart)
You murder my heart, broke my just and watch me fade away
Now I see, now I see
That you just as broken as me
Just as broken as, just as broken as, just as broken as
You’re just as broken as me
I’ve been a slave, you’ve been a slave
I’ve been a slave to the hatred in you, in me 
I see you’re just as broken as me
I will forgive, forgive, ’cause I know that it will set me free
But all that’s left is the emptiness inside of me
You murder my heart, broke my just and watch me fade away
Now I see, now I see
That you just as broken as me
You’re just as broken as me
You’re just as broken as me
You’re just as broken as me
Jacoby Shadix explained that the song is about forgiveness. About not wanting to forgive ‘but you know it’s the best thing to do’.
I am guilty. I don’t want to forgive some people sometimes. But you know, it is always best to do it even if it is completely hard. If you keep that hatred in your heart you keep bad karma surrounding you. I am all about keeping good karma around you and putting the good karma into the world.

#Lyrics Disturbia-Rihanna

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

No more gas in the red
Can’t even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can’t even speak about it
All my life on my head
Don’t want to think about it
Feels like I’m going insane
Yeah

It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It’s too close for comfort

Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in Disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in Disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Faded pictures on the wall
It’s like they talkin’ to me
Disconnectin’ your call
Your phone don’t even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It’s too close for comfort

It’s a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster

Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in Disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in Disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Release me from this curse I’m in
I’ve been trying to maintain
But I’m struggling
You can’t go, go, go
I think I’m going to oh, oh, oh

Throw on your break lights
We’re in the city of wonder
Ain’t gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in Disturbia
It’s like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in Disturbia
Ain’t used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

 

Considering that I relate this song to the monsters in my mind…it makes it even more weird that Chris Brown co-wrote this song before the incident that kind of changed the view of him forever.

 

What is your take

Worst case scenario 

I cannot speak for everyone, or anyone but myself really. But my anxiety has me constantly seeing/believing the worst case scenarios constantly.

At a stop light, if a car is approaching I think they’re not going to stop and rear end me. I’m 20 something years old and I still don’t like the dark. I always fear that someone is lurking in the dark (this stems back to my childhood and my brother thinking it would be funny to always scare me in the dark). Going to a big store at night alone is especially difficult because you hear all those stories about people getting robbed or attacked.

Growing up, I never really had an active imagination. But ever since anxiety reared its ugly head, my imagination has gotten quite vivid.

One thing I have learned is that when my anxiety takes my fears and magnify’s them by like a million. I need to rationalize. Step back, take a moment and assess what is really happening and what i’m blowing out of proportion. Am I really in any real danger?

I’m not perfect, so sometimes I forget to step back. This allows my anxiety to run rampant.

Do you forget to take a step back? Do you feel like you’re always being a pessimist? Leave me a comment and tell me how you rationalize your anxiety.

#Lyrics Face Everything and Rise- Papa Roach

Face everything and rise
The streets crawl with a deadly omen
Outside I see a world that’s broken
I can’t breathe, my heart is choking
I need a cure for this life I’ve chosen
The pain, the rain is a blessing in disguise
I feel it cutting and its cutting like a knife
The pain, the rain is a blessing in disguise
I feel it cutting and its cutting like a knife
I will face everything and rise
Never gonna quit until the day I die
Angels keep falling from the sky
Take the broken wings and learn to fly
I will face everything and rise
The earth shakes and the city’s burning
Blood fill’s like the tide is turning
Life hurts and there’s no warning
Lightning strikes, my heart is storming
The pain, the rain is a blessing in disguise
The flood’s coming and it’s drowning all the lies
The pain, the rain is a blessing in disguise
The flood’s coming and it’s drowning all the lies
I will face everything and rise
Never gonna quit until the day I die
Angels keep falling from the sky
Take the broken wings and learn to fly
I will face everything and rise
Running in the fire, I’ll never be the same
I come alive when I am burning in the flames
I’m under fire when I’m burning wide awake
My life feels empty when I am walking through the flames
When I am walking through the flames
When I am walking through the flames
I will face everything and rise
Never gonna quit until the day I die
Angels keep falling from the sky
Take the broken wings and learn to fly
I will face everything and rise
Face everything and rise
Jacoby Shaddix once said in an interview that the key lyric is ‘my pain is a blessing in disguise’ he explained that he used to feel like ‘why me’ but this song is about finding the strength in the pain.
I love this song. I have been a Papa Roach fan since Last Resort. This is one of those songs that I am just in love with. Whenever I feel like my anxiety is taken over my life, I can listen to this song and start to take charge of my life again. Its like I can either face everything and RUN or I can face everything and RISE. Although, anxiety makes me want to run….I choose everyday to fight and rise..
What do you think when you hear this song? Have you heard this song before?

#Lyric Iris-Goo Goo Dolls

And I’d give up forever to touch you
‘Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t wanna miss you tonight
And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive
And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don’t want the world to see me
‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
This song came out in 1998. But it feels like it just came out. There was something about 90’s music that kind of just spoke to you. Nothing like some of the stuff they allow on the radio now. (I have very intense feelings about music)
The song appeared on the movie City of Angles starring Nicholas Cage. The song is initially about an invisible identity that no one understands. Te individual finds his true love. And he wants his true love to know that he exists. That she is the only one in the world that understands him and loves him.
I remember listening to this song since I was a kid. Back then I didn’t understand the meaning of the song until now.

Routine is important 

For me, having the bases of a routine is very important. Now I’m not one of those people who has every minute of every day planned out. And a lot of my day is very flexible. I’m not unreasonable.

Most mornings I’m up before 6 am. My kids usually gets up by 6:30am and we’re in the car to pick up my nephews by 7:15, at the school by 7:30 home by 8 (some days me and the toddler go get breakfast.) Then I am back at the school in line by 1pm and I sit for an hour and a half waiting for the kids to get out. My kids have baths before 7pm and the oldest should by in bed by 9pm.

As you see, there’s a large amount of time that’s not scheduled and thats okay because I know life happens.

But when I plan things or I am late, that;s when my anxiety peaks. I feel, well honestly, insane. My skin feels like it’s crawling, my heart races and I start organizing stuff near me like crazy. Having some sort of routine really helps. If my morning is off, I feel like I spend my whole day trying to get everything back on track.