Don’t want to remember
‘I don’t know about you or how your anxiety affects you. But mine? Yeah mine is quite awful. Sometimes, for no reason, I remember things I really don’t want to.
There is one specific event from when I was around 5 that I have spent many many years trying to forget. But then there are times where I will get ‘flashbacks’ and my day is ruined.
It doesn’t even have to be something that severe. I can have ‘flashbacks’ from things I have said. Which is what happens the most. I can be sitting on the couch watching tv or working on some school work and remember something stupid I said 2 weeks ago and then my night is ruined because I cannot think about anything but what I did.
What is sad is that I think I spend the most time trying to make sure that I don’t do anything stupid. Which if you’ve ever been that way you know that it makes you look like a fool as well. Like walking on eggshells trying to not break them.