#Lyrics Untitled-Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

 

This song was written about friends of the band who had died in accidents because of drunk drivers.  Although, this song is a powerful message about not drinking and driving, it relates to a lot of mental illness. How we feel helpless. How we feel like we want to scream and cry. Whenever I watch this video, I cry. Bawl like a big baby. It is a very powerful song and video.

#Lyrics Welcome To My Life-Simple Plan

With this song, I don’t really have to break it down. It is pretty self explanatory. This song helped me a lot thru middle school. My life hasn’t always been easy. I mean compared to the people around me. This song kind of helped me to cope with it.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don’t know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what its like to be like me
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
Welcome to my life
Do you want to be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you’re bleeding
No you don’t know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what its like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy
But I’m not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what its like
What its like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
What its like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what its like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

 

I don’t know why

There are some days where I just look at my husband and say ‘man I’m feeling really anxious right now’ and he always asks why.

Don’t get me wrong. That is in no way an invalid question. We, as curious creatures, always ask why so that we can find out what. Why is the sky dark? Well thats because the sun has gone down. We wouldn’t have found as many answers in this world if we didn’t ask why. The only time asking why can be annoying is when your child decides thats the only word they are going to use that day.

My problem is that I get nervous about pretty much everything. Sometimes, I just don’t know why I am anxious. I just am. Unfortunately, not a lot of people understand that.

Which is why I will always stress that it is important that you have someone in your life that understands. My husband may ask why, not in some type of joking get over it matter, but in a sense of how can he help fix it. Unfortunately, there are occasions where I just don’t know why. Even then he still asks how he can help.

It is questions like that. Just offereing help, it can be so calming to an anxious person. Don’t be judgemental. Be friendly. Be helpful.

So if someone you love has anxiety and they’re feeling anxious. Don’t judge them. Instead, ask them how you can help.

#Lyrics Lucky One-Simple Plan

 

 

I think that I have been a Simple Plan fan since I was a kid. I remember when Addicted would come on MTV, you know when they showed music videos.
However, I feel like a bad fan because I completely forgot that Simple Plan had an album that came out a year ago. Bad fan!
I did find this song and thought it should be on one of my lyric post. You know those posts where I say why I like this song and what parts really speak to me. Because music speaks the words we are too afraid to say.
Why the stars are lined up so perfectly
For everybody, but not for me
When you feel like everyone is having a great life and that everything comes easy to them but everything is so hard for you
Wish it could be easy
But it never goes that away
It’s never like the movies
It is never like the movies. Especially love and romance.
It’s never like they say
Well maybe one day I’ll be back on my feet
And all of this pain will be gone
And maybe it won’t be so hard to be me
I’ll found out just where I belong
It feels like it’s taking forever
It tends to always feel like forever before things get better. But sometimes you just gotta hang on to that sliver of hope
But one day things can get better
And maybe,
My time will come
And I’ll be the lucky one
Now I can’t stop thinkin’
How this life could be
I can keep pretendin’
But honestly
Does it really make a difference?
Does it really ever change a thing?
It’s never like the movies
It’s never like you think
Maybe one day I’ll be back on my feet
And all of this pain we’ll be gone
When we have a mental illness, we need to hold on to the hopes that the pain will be gone. It is a journey.
And maybe it won’t be so hard to be me
When I found out just where I belong
It feels like it’s taking forever
But one day things can get better
Then maybe,
My time will come
And I’ll be the lucky one
So give me a reason to keep holdin’ on
Something that makes me believe
That my life’s gonna change
Seems like everyone else gets a shot, gets a break
I can’t wait for that to be me
It feels like forever for a break to come. But we just gotta hold on, hang on.
Maybe one day I’ll be back on my feet
And all of this pain will be gone (all of this pain will be gone)
Maybe it won’t be so hard to be me
And I’ll found out just where I belong (I’ll found out just where I belong)
And maybe one day I’ll be back on my feet
And all of this pain will be gone
It feels like it’s taking forever
But one day
Things can get better
And maybe,
My time will come
And I’ll be the lucky one
And I’ll be the lucky one
Simple Plan seems to be that kind of band that has always stayed true to themselves. They have never changed to fit the norm. They never change because society wants them to. And they always seem to speak to you when you need them the most.

Cant adult

I actually have a shirt that says. “I can’t adult today” It’s meant as a joke. But its something many of us with anxiety, depression or any mental illness feel quite often.

There are days where facing the world is just so scary. Going to pay bills seems like fighting a giant. It’s like we have no energy.

And it is not an excuse. There are so many people who say they don’t want to adult because they simply want to be carefree. I wish that is all that I wanted to do. Instead, I can’t adult today because I am just so exhausted from adulting the day before. Stressing about every little thing. Panic attacks that come from no where. Feeling like everything is my fault. Like I will only ever have bad karma.

Some days, I just don’t have the energy to adult.

Lets speak out

So I talk about breaking the stigma that surrounds mental illness a lot.

Why? Because no one should feel ashamed of needing help. Of seeking help. Hell even just talking about what’s wrong.

So if you like what I write…please don’t forget to share.

Lets spread the message around. The more people see. The more they read then maybe the more they’ll begin to understand and accept. The closer we come to breaking the stigma.

So lets start sharing. If you have something you want me to read share it with me. I’ll be happy to do the shame.

Everything is getting closer

Having anxiety can be awful. You want to do things but sometimes you just cannot gather the courage. Maybe it is is a party with friends or even a band playing at a bar.

I usually force myself to do a lot of things, especially when it comes to seeing WWE or a band live. I’ve never really been that type of person to party though. I think I maybe did the party scene for like a month or two but it wasn’t my style. Too many stupid people over drunk or high. It was great for my mom though, one less thing that she had to stress over.

However, I’m really not good at social situations. They terrify me. Which is why I usually have my camera. It’s like a mask that I get to hide behind. Whenever I don’t have a camera, I try to shrink into the corner.

Having social anxiety can make you feel like the room is closing in. That all the people are talking about you, even if they don’t know that you exist.

Having social anxiety can make you throw yourself into a panic. Asking yourself, ‘how am I going to get out of here.’ ‘What excuse can I use.’ ‘I can’t use the restroom again, I usesd that excuse last time’ ‘They’ll see right through your lies’

Social anxiety is knowing where all the exits are and the fastest routes to get to them. Having social anxiety is being ready to bolt at any given moment. Having social anxiety is quite frankly a pain in the butt.

However, having kids kind of forces you to confront your social anxiety head on. Like a deer in headlights. Luckily, my kids did not inherit my social awkward anxiety. Although my oldest is starting to show some signs of having other anxiety like breaking down when she feels she can’t get something. That happened a couple of weeks ago, there were 4 of us trying to show her how to do something all at once and she just felt like she wasn’t getting it and cried. It brok my heart to see her get so anxious. I immediately shut everyone else up and consoled her into trying again on her own terms. But other than that, she is the life of the party. She is very verbal. Funny. Just the life of the party. She loves going places, experiencing things like the park, museums, beach. So I do not want to be that kind of parent that hinders their childs growth from their own fears. So I go, I do. I experience and I’m starting to not over analyze these moments as much. I still have my moments don’t get me wrong. It’s a process and I am making progress, no matter how small.

#BreakTheStigma