#Lyrics Issues-Julia Michaels

I’m jealous, I’m overzealous
When I’m down, I get real down
When I’m high, I don’t come down
I get angry, baby, believe me
I could love you just like that
And I could leave you just this fast

But you don’t judge me
‘Cause if you did, baby, I would judge you too
No, you don’t judge me
‘Cause if you did, baby, I would judge you too

‘Cause I got issues
But you got ’em too
So give ’em all to me
And I’ll give mine to you
Bask in the glory
Of all our problems
‘Cause we got the kind of love
It takes to solve ’em

Yeah, I got issues
And one of them is how bad I need you

You do shit on purpose
You get mad and you break things
Feel bad, try to fix things
But you’re perfect
Poorly wired circuit
And got hands like an ocean
Push you out, pull you back in

‘Cause you don’t judge me
‘Cause if you did, baby, I would judge you too
No, you don’t judge me
‘Cause you see it from same point of view

‘Cause I got issues
But you got ’em too
So give ’em all to me
And I’ll give mine to you
Bask in the glory
Of all our problems
‘Cause we got the kind of love
It takes to solve ’em

Yeah, I got issues
And one of them is how bad I need you

And one of them is how bad I need you
(I got issues, you got ’em too)

‘Cause I got issues
(I got)
But you got ’em too
So give ’em all to me
(You got ’em too)
And I’ll give mine to you
Bask in the glory
(I got issues)
Of all our problems
‘Cause we got the kind of love
(You got ’em too)
It takes to solve ’em

Yeah, I got issues (I got)
And one of them is how bad I need you (You got ’em too)
Yeah, I got issues (I got issues)
And one of them is how bad I need you (You got ’em too)
Yeah, I got issues (I got)
And one of them is how bad I need you

 

This is such a simple song in terms of complexity. The actual musical part is not to complex the lyrics are straightforward but it holds so much meaning.

Julia Michaels wrote this song in regards to the issues in her relationship. They have since broken up but he congratulated her on the song.

How many of you feel like this could relate to at least one of your relationships?

I know I do.

For instance, my first boyfriend liked to flirt with girls right in front of me. If they ever gave him an inkling that he had a chance, he would dump me. But when the left him flat on his face, he would want me to take him back. I was 14 so of course I did. I was young and dumb. But even today, I still consider him a friend. We grew up together since we were 6.

But Even just the part that says when i’m down  im real down and when im high i won’t come down. That speaks such volumes. Especially in regards to depression or anxiety. Life is a roller coaster and for those who experience mental illness, the ups and downs are to the extreme.

But the song is about both parties having issues. It’s like a toxic relationship.I have seen so many toxic relationships.

What is your take on the song?

#Lyrics Migraine-Twenty One Pilots

 

Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I’m alone
I-I-I I’ve got a migraine
And my pain will range from up, down, and sideways
Thank God it’s Friday cause Fridays will always be better than Sundays
‘Cause Sundays are my suicide days
I don’t know why they always seem so dismal
Thunderstorms, clouds, snow and a slight drizzle
Whether it’s the weather or the ledges by my bed
Sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head  Suicide is not the answer)
Let it be said what the headache represents
It’s me defending in suspense
It’s me suspended in a defenseless test
Being tested by a ruthless examiner
That’s represented best by my depressing thoughts
I do not have writer’s block my writer just hates the clock
It will not let me sleep I guess I’ll sleep when I’m dead   (Sometimes sleep is the hardest)
And sometimes death seems better than the migraine in my head
Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I’m alone
But I know, we’ve made it this far, kid
Yeah yeah yeah
I am not as fine as I seem
Pardon, me for yelling and telling you green gardens
Are not what’s growing in my psyche, it’s a different me
A difficult beast feasting on burnt down trees
Freeze frame, please let me paint a mental picture portrait
Something you won’t forget, it’s all about my forehead
And how it is a door that hold’s back contents
That makes Pandora’s box contents look non-violent
Behind my eyelids are islands of violence
My mind ship-wrecked this is the only land my mind could find
I did not know it was such a violent island
Full of tidal waves, suicidal crazed lions
They’re trying to eat me, blood running down their chin
And I know that I can fight, or I can let the lion win
I begin to assemble what weapons I can find
‘Cause sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind
Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I’m alone  (Unfortunately, the voices, the anxiety tells you that you are all alone, that it is only you in this fight…it’s not true.)
But I know, we’ve made it this far, kid
And I will say that we should take a day to break away
From all the pain our brain has made, the game is not played alone
And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it
And keep it frozen and know that life has a hopeful undertone
And I will say that we should take a day to break away
From all the pain our brain has made, the game is not played alone
And I will say that we should take a moment and hold it
And keep it frozen and know that life has a hopeful undertone
Am I the only one I know
Waging my wars behind my face and above my throat
Shadows will scream that I’m alone
But I know, we’ve made it this far, kid
Made it this far
Made it this far
I don’t know about you. But I have had my share of migraines. But is this song truly about migraines?
I don’t think so. I think it is more about what causes those migraines. Like a fight between yourself. Where your anxiety tells you one thing and you tell yourself something else.
Some of the powerful lines that I thought stand out I have underlined.
The song ends by saying we’ve made it this far, kid. made it this far. made it this far. That is the most powerful thing. We may have this war raging in our head but we made it this far. And we will continue to keep fighting. Music is truly the most powerful coping mechanism that I have found.

Forward is Forward

One thing that drives me insane personally is when I feel like I am not recovering or progressing fast enough. And the problem with that is I feel like the more I stress about not going anywhere fast enough, the farther behind I fall.

(And I know I have posted about your recovery and your speed many times before. but I do feel like it is something worth mentioning over and over. Because we need that reminder. I need that reminder)

There is a song by Bone Thugs N Harmony ft Akon (i believer) called I tried. I remember being in 9th grade and being obsessed with this song. It says, ’10 steps forward and 5 steps back’ This single line….sums up my thoughts on my anxiety journey. Just when I think I am getting somewhere… I fall further back.

I hope I am not the only one who has felt that way. Or the only one who experiences that. If I am….that kind of stresses me out more. But if I’m not, hey guys 🙂

One thing that I am actively trying to understand and practice is…your speed doesn’t matter. How fast it takes you to get a hold on your illness isn’t relevant. Even though I wish here was a fast forward button on recovery, there isn’t. Forward is forward. Anxiety isn’t something you out grow. Its not something that goes away. It is a life long journey learning how to control it.

The more you (or me) stress over how fast we are moving forward, the farther behind we go. Your speed doesnt matter. Forward is forward. However, it is ok if you fall back a few steps. As long as you get right back up, dust yourself off and try again. This is a journey. It is your journey. It is my journey. And I am glad you all are here with me

#Lyrics Warrior-Demi Lovato

This is a story that I have never told
I gotta get this off my chest to let it go
I need to take back the light inside you stole
You’re a criminal
And you steal like you’re a pro
All the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I was broken and bruised
Now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
Out of the ashes, I’m burning like a fire
You can save your apologies, you’re nothing but a liar
I’ve got shame, I’ve got scars
That I will never show
I’m a survivor
In more ways than you know
‘Cause all the pain and the truth
I wear like a battle wound
So ashamed, so confused
I’m not broken or bruised
‘Cause now I’m a warrior
Now I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me
There’s a part of me I can’t get back
A little girl grew up too fast
All it took was once, I’ll never be the same
Now I’m taking back my life today
Nothing left that you can say
‘Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway
Now I’m a warrior
I’ve got thicker skin
I’m a warrior
I’m stronger than I’ve ever been
And my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in
I’m a warrior
And you can never hurt me again
No oh yeah yeah
You can never hurt me again
This is such a powerful song. And I hold it very close. It is one of my favorite Demi Lovato songs. She is such an inspiration. She had an issue and she got help. In a world where that is so difficult, it is beautiful that she had the strength and courage to find help.
We all have our own stories. We came from somewhere. We have gone thru things. We have came thru. We may be broken. Scarred. We may hurt. Our anxious minds may play the same things over and over, play our mistakes over and over. But we made it. We are a warrior.
If you have never heard that song, you should take a listen. Read the lyrics. Hear the music. and really listen to the lyrics. Let Demi’s words speak to your situation. Speak to your heart. Calm your mind. This is such a strong song and message about mental illness and what we can overcome.

recaps!!

I know that I said that I would write recaps or reviews on the shows that I enjoy…

But sleep.

I have been trying to get myself to sleep better and sometimes that means missing smackdown or raw.

however, if you would like a review of tonight’s episode of Smackdown Live…let me know.

How to relieve a panic attack

 

This is said to cause an autonomic nervous system shift from a sympathetic (fight or flight reaction) to a parasympathetic response.


When searching for remedies for panic attacks, I always seem to come across the remedy above. Which is something that is similar to what an old band director told me to do.

Except she told me to breath in for 2, hold for 2, out for 2, wait 2. I was in band so of course all of this was to a rhythm.  It worked for a while. Really it did. But then it just stopped. One day it no longer calmed my attacks.

So I started looking for more remedies.

And I came across so little. One that I found was a ‘grounding’ exercise where you looked around you at things that you could see, touch, taste and hear. In hopes that if you find these sensory things you can pull yourself out of an attack. Then, of course, there is the brown paper bag.

If you know of any remedies. Please share. I would love to hear what helps you.

If you have pulled yourself out of an attack, you are extremely strong. Keep fighting. Together we can #BreakTheStigma

#Lyrics Fight Song-Rachel Platten

 

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (in too deep)
And it’s been two years I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe
And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
A lot of fight left in me
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong (I’ll be strong)
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
Know I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
This is such a powerful, beautiful song. For anyone. Especially if you have a mental illness. I cannot tell you how many times I have cried over this song. Because of this song. Because of the beauty. Because of the power that those words held.
Now this song is not about mental illness. It is about the singer who has been in this industry for a long time. This was her song to say that she’s not done yet.
But who is to say that we cannot use it in our journey with conquering mental illness? Isn’t that what music is? The ability to hear the lyrics and relate them to our lives. How a song can save our life because the words speak to our soul. Lets us know that we are not alone. That there is someone out there, just like us who is experiencing the same thing.
I watch a lot of Youtube. And if you watch youtube, you will know that there are ads before pretty much every video. In one ad….there is a preview for a documentary for Demi Lovato. She explains how she started in music. How music saved her life. Why she wants to make music to save others lives.
I truly believe that is what music is for.