Forward is Forward
One thing that drives me insane personally is when I feel like I am not recovering or progressing fast enough. And the problem with that is I feel like the more I stress about not going anywhere fast enough, the farther behind I fall.
(And I know I have posted about your recovery and your speed many times before. but I do feel like it is something worth mentioning over and over. Because we need that reminder. I need that reminder)
There is a song by Bone Thugs N Harmony ft Akon (i believer) called I tried. I remember being in 9th grade and being obsessed with this song. It says, ’10 steps forward and 5 steps back’ This single line….sums up my thoughts on my anxiety journey. Just when I think I am getting somewhere… I fall further back.
I hope I am not the only one who has felt that way. Or the only one who experiences that. If I am….that kind of stresses me out more. But if I’m not, hey guys 🙂
One thing that I am actively trying to understand and practice is…your speed doesn’t matter. How fast it takes you to get a hold on your illness isn’t relevant. Even though I wish here was a fast forward button on recovery, there isn’t. Forward is forward. Anxiety isn’t something you out grow. Its not something that goes away. It is a life long journey learning how to control it.
The more you (or me) stress over how fast we are moving forward, the farther behind we go. Your speed doesnt matter. Forward is forward. However, it is ok if you fall back a few steps. As long as you get right back up, dust yourself off and try again. This is a journey. It is your journey. It is my journey. And I am glad you all are here with me