Can’t do everything
One thing that I find is very hard for me to actually comprehend is that although I can do anything, I can’t do everything. I want to do everything. I relly want to do everything.
I try so very hard to do absolutely everything and when I fail….. I feel like a complete failure. Like I drop my kid off at school by 7:35 am and I am home before 8 am. I get back in line to pick my kid up from school at 1. (Yes I am aware that I sit in line for an hour an a half, but I get to work on my writing then….)
So from 8 am to 1pm I want to do school work, work on the blog, clean, spend some quality time with the baby, get dinner ready, run errands, grocery shop and pay bills. Does that always happen….not really. Does it make me feel bad… It really really does.
So what I need to start understanding is that I cannot always do everything. I do try to only grocery shop once a week. So Sunday, I meal plan, write up my grocery list and go to the grocery store. I clean in the morning and evening. I run my errands at noon so that I go from errands and paying bills to getting in line at the school. While I am in line I try to work on the blog…some days I am very awful…sorry guys. I spend quality time with the baby watching learning shows and playing games from the time we get home til I leave… during her nap time from around 8:30 to 9:30 I work on school and then I work on it again later that night.
Schedules really seem to help my anxiety. However, I feel like I set myself up for failure a lot because if I don’t get things done on my schedule or if things don’t go according to plan… I get really anxious.
I can do anything….but not everything.
Sometimes you need to learn how to delegate and rely on your support system.